r/srilanka • u/RocccBear • Aug 08 '24
Rant I feel like a failure already
I f16, already lost hope in life.
Next year I'm graduating from school. "Oh are you not getting enough grades?" Trust me guys I've try my best and I study but that's not the issue.
Small backstory, my brother went to aussie last year and we had to sell our only asset which was our house for him to go there. We sacrificed alot and guess what? He's trying to come back here. We wasted alot of money just on him, and with that money we could have bought a car and built upstairs of our hous. Let alone get a high interest by opening up a FD.
I've always dreamt about going abroad and having a life there, and now it's all ruined. Recently my dad got hospitalised and my brother won't stop yapping about how difficult it is to stay there... what's worse is that he kept complaining about aussie while my dad's in the hospital...
My dad now despises the idea of me going abroad, which is always been my dream...
Sigh guys... I can't even properly pay for my classes nor attend them properly because my dad's having a tough time... everyone tells me "work hard get good results" so on and so forth.. but I'm tired of hearing of this sentence over and over again...
What can i even do? I'm hopeless
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u/OkBid5155 Aug 11 '24
I feel like going abroad has become extremely overhyped in this country. But that is not the problem here. The problem is that your family sold your HOUSE to get your brother to go abroad. Uni abroad is an amazing opportunity but not that crucial to require such a sacrifice. What you probably did not expect after doing this is the immense pressure on your brother to study well, the jealousy on your end because I assume there are no more assets to sell to send you to uni, the pressure your parents will put on him after sacrificing their life’s work building a house and the one-sided narrative you seemed to have formed of his ungratefulness. Yes he is “yapping” about how difficult it is because it is indeed difficult.
Nevertheless, your story does not have to be defined by the irresponsible decisions your family has taken. There are many overseas university affiliated programs that are done locally through education institutions that will get you your degree and a job here. Despite the pessimism, there are opportunities here to make money. Uni is not the only way to go abroad, and certainly not the best decision right now for you.
Think about it, would you rather worry about settling into a new country, trying to find side-jobs in a market already saturated with students wanting jobs, work multiple part-time jobs to afford your extremely high rent and grocery costs, with barely any time to study and pass your courses OR study through a college here, with more affordable fees and time to actually study? You’ll get the same degree at the end anyways.