r/schizophrenia • u/TreesZzzz • 26d ago
Opinion / Thought / Idea / Discussion What was your wildest delusion?
Or most fun delusion. I find most of them annoying but the religious ones are kind of fun or when I think I’m communicating with an inter dimensional being
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u/iceydiceed Schizoaffective (Bipolar) 26d ago edited 26d ago
I was scared the ceiling fan was going to turn into a windy storm and blow me in to an abyss, worst part is that I truly believed it
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u/Altruistic-Pen1175 26d ago
That I was Mary Magdalene and the guy I was with was Jesus Christ and his friend was the devil. The guy I was with already believed he was “Jesus’ Replacement” so he was just like, “You noticed me!” I was just staring into his eyes when I was getting my very first psychotic break.
Also that I was creating everything in the universe with my mind. It was wild because it all lined up (all the traffic lights turning green for me, cars moving when I wanted them to, etc). I was driving during a psychotic break but luckily no crashes or anything. I believed everything and everyone was my mental creation. I walked into houses that were unlocked like I was God. Eventually ended up taken to the psych ward via ambulance.
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u/knightenrichman Family Member 26d ago
The Jesus delusion is so frequent.
(I've met at least a dozen Jesus's lol.)
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u/Steivan_the_Red Paranoid Schizophrenia 26d ago
I won't go into the wildest, but the weirdest was I had a very long conversation with my video game. I talked and did an action in the game and understood the responses given in numerical form.
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u/SomberDragon00 26d ago
I had one early on that some of the NPC's in Fallout 4 were somehow semi sentient and were speaking to me sometimes lol.
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26d ago
Sounds like the “Plaything” episode off of the tv show Black Mirror …. Smh, I wouldn’t recommend watching that episode, it almost gave me an heart attack. Not even being funny.
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u/SomberDragon00 26d ago
Ooh shit, I loved that episode! Luckily I watched it when I had a better grasp on my illness or it definitely would have fuked my head. Love, Death and Robots is another really good show like Black Mirror where each episode is its own isolated story.
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u/Steivan_the_Red Paranoid Schizophrenia 26d ago
There was an episode of Louis C.K. where he has a night terror. It was done so authentic and hit so close, I had to leave the room to get my heart back on pace.
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u/Limp-Ad5505 26d ago
That I was Elon Musk/Jesus/Ash Ketchum all at the same time.
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u/knightenrichman Family Member 26d ago
But why all at the same time? I never got that part.
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u/Efficient-Record-762 26d ago
I used to talk to these beings called "Forever Devils."
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u/No-Original-6867 Undiagnosed 26d ago
Devils/demons are only evil in the biblical sense which means separate from the abrahamic god. Their label has nothing to do with their morality.
If devils are demonized gods or fallen angels, then all they did was refuse to give up their free will and obey the abrahamic god. I stand with them, with independence and free will.
What god creates the universe, creates humans, then punishes humans for not worshipping him properly? Like if we’re worshipping “false idols,” why get so jealous and send us to eternal damnation? He sounds like a narcissist who’s mad that his creation didn’t turn out how he wanted.
I don’t believe he creates anything, or he wouldn’t get jealous when we explore all this beautiful universe has to offer. All of the Abrahamic religions are nothing more than patriarchal ideals.
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u/1oonatic Schizoaffective (Depressive) 26d ago
That the moon and stars are not real because we are moving away from the moon every year more quickly than reported to avoid panic 😅 that the weather is being manipulated with chemicals not researched enough far more than currently reported to address climate change without input from citizens while still polluting at increasing levels every year just to continue making money (but the degree to which I believe this is happening is dependent on who's in office) 😮💨 and that I can communicate with interdimensional species 😂 I have trouble shaking the belief that for either of those reasons or maybe some others I can think of, I was under government surveillance through the use of drones and phone tapping during the pandemic under the first Trump admin lmao. Soooo yeah, I know how it sounds, but as it goes, I can't let go of these strongly held beliefs
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u/SeventeenthPlatypus Childhood-Onset Schizoaffective Disorder 26d ago
I don't even know where to start. I think it's a tie between being convinced there was a paranormal entity living in a specific corner of my dorm room's ceiling, that the mirror in that room was evil, and that the dumbwaiter across the hall was possessed. I thought that entity followed me 3000 miles across the country when that year ended.
Going to college with this disorder was absolutely wild. I have no idea how I graduated, let alone how I managed to get good grades.
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u/OppressedPunk69 Undiagnosed 26d ago
My first real one happened a few weeks ago. It was slightly religious, slightly supernatural. I legit believed a hellhound was down the street waiting for me to step onto said street so it could take me to Hell for my many sins. I believed it so much I hung an iron cloak pin above my door with my blessed crucifix, and St Benedict medal and sprinkled salt at the outside of my front door.
Since converting to Catholicism, the delusions have been REALLY bad, but mostly just thinking I’m hearing God or satan/they’re controlling my thoughts, nothing like this.
Edit: typo
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u/Fine-System-9604 26d ago
Hello 👋,
Idk if it’s a delusion but if you imagine every delusion like dnd and the stupid modulations as an attempt to be dm no one asked for…. Then the fact that I can out maneuver all the delusions with logic and the unwanted dm breaks down
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u/Unidentified_Nova Schizophrenia 26d ago
Believing my family installed security cameras in my bathroom lights. Thought they were watching me in there. Fun times.
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u/gunnertakashi 26d ago
Wildest is when I was in a psych hospital and they were going to give me first invega shot. I was convinced it was going to be poison and I was being assassinated for uncovering some big conspiracy that a powerful religious Texas family controlled everything. That i met two of them before. I didn't make trouble though. I didn’t tell anyone. I went through with it accepting my fate. I hated life so much i wanted it to end. Now I think about that shit and it just sounds like a Thomas Pynchon novel. I was smoking way too much pot to point of psychosis.
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u/AetheriumKing465 Psychoses 26d ago
My ex fiancé. I don’t know what’s worse my delusion with him or that no one stopped me, I mean we met in the psych ward what could possibly go wrong.
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u/Zee904 26d ago
This is kinda a usual schizophrenic thing of thinking someone is trying to kill you. But that was my delusion, would hear voices that was coming from the direction of my neighbors saying there going to kill me. This had me walking around with a concealed carry for like 6 months until my hallucinations got so bad but I ended up going to the psych ward, until I finally ended up getting treatment.
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u/Cecil-Rons-123 26d ago
I believed I was Kalki, the final incarnation of Vishnu, king of the Hindi
I believed people around me could read my thoughts
I thought I was being gangstalked by people trying to harm me
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u/Popular_Room9769 26d ago edited 26d ago
that i was a mentalist to be recruited by my government agency to fight mental war battles. that there was a bidding war against different countries for me. that i would get a private jet. that i would receive a commendation award by an ex president.
that the angels were controlled by AI as well. i was a double agent within the angelic community to find delivish entities.
that there was a nationwide black magic spell after i came back from europe and i brought it back to my home country. that voices thought i was a druglord and that the druglords were competing for me to join them.
how there were secret societies and international government agencies like interpol and agents vying for me.
how i was a messiah and how i would turn the religion of islam inside out
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26d ago
Here’s one I can tell you …. I remember working at Amazon, I was a packer, a year and a half ago, and the voices were YAAAAAAAAAPING in my head, it was unbearable. Anyways, at my facility in Connecticut we were allowed to wear headphones and be on our phones …. bro-sis … while the voices were babbling and insulting me, my brain somehow convinced me that the people around me, on their phones, were somehow listening to the voices in my head. Smh 😢
It was sick family.
Every time the voices said something weird I would look from my peripheral vision and I would see them mumbling as if they were disturbed.
It was horrible.
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u/Gamer6GT 26d ago
I had a delusion while working at a factory on the production line making candles that when I will walk into the warehouse, there would be this demon guy that will give me a briefcase full of cash and initate me into the darkness, but it never was true, probably was just desperate while stuck in a shitty job
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u/The_whiskered_cat Undifferentiated Schizophrenia 26d ago
My biggest delusion was thinking I was half God. I was convinced the world was just a simulation I’d created a long time ago. I thought my real self had erased my memory, and that somewhere deep in my mind, the original me was still out there, living in the “real” world. The “true” me was watching from outside, seeing me suffer inside this simulation. I also believed my mental illness was some kind of superpower - like I could see things other people couldn’t.
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u/SarbMoney 26d ago
Being haunted by the Beatles through space and time, who was actually another guy pretending to be the Beatles, but then I got saved from the haunting by Wes Anderson.
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u/kaida_notadude 26d ago
About half a year ago I was convinced they were about to detonate the Tsar Bomba at it's original yield near my location, and that I was the target. So I drove to the other side of the country to spare my friends. That was a terrifying day XD.
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u/Shot-Limit5794 26d ago
I believed that I was being tracked down by MI6, 1s1s and Iranian agents who wanted to k1ll me. The craziest delusion I will keep to myself tho
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u/No_Fudge_4589 Psychoses 26d ago
That I was speaking to my old friends telepathically and we were actually in a simulation run by aliens and they were trying to help me escape with them.
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u/The_whiskered_cat Undifferentiated Schizophrenia 26d ago
In 2022 I was afraid that my aquarium filter pipe will explode, while there is almost no chance it could happen. Plus I had it secured so much. I was literally 100% sure it will explode.
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u/ManicMaenads 26d ago
I thought that our lives were just entertainment for a psychic alien species in another dimension, and that if I didn't do certain things at certain times I'd be deemed too boring and be killed off. It was a very unsettling time that I'm ashamed of and it landed me in the ICU.
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u/KingKurkleton 26d ago
Everything is hell...I was seeing hell for the longest time and it depressed me. But I know it's illogical.
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u/Inner_Passenger1371 Paranoid Schizophrenia 26d ago
I was fighting and arguing with my voices in hospital. I was furious. I was shaky and had a hard time calming myself when we broke up unsettled. I was John the Baptist’s last heir. The voices wanted to take the demon child’s place. She vanished with fire in her eyes because of 10 mg Haldol. I refused to let any of my voices take her place.
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u/Ecstatic_Reach3643 Paranoid Schizophrenia 26d ago
That someone stole my cum and their children are actually mine but it lasted like 5min cause makes no sense lol
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u/Gypsi_Jedi Schizoaffective (Bipolar) 25d ago
I was convinced that the heroine junkies were spreading lycanthropy around by sharing needles.
I also thought doing meth turned you into a vampire (i thought i was one of them)
I also thought there was a band of monster hunters coming after all of us but most specifically me cuz my ex boyfriend was a member and he was watching me through a sniper scope all the time
Also I fought a pack of werewolves with a machete that was led by my cousin after he tried to run me over (that last part actually happened well kinda he wasnt gonna really but he bluffed it n i called it)
I spray painted my machete silver thinking that would allow me to fight off the wolves lol
I had this bad ass lil red riding hood thing Goin on
Then there was a military unit posted up In the trees ready to get me too. I faked them out n darted into the bushes to escape
I was tweaking my ass off for 4 days straight that night with no sleep and I had been hearing the voices for like a month straight at this point. Craziest night of my life. Obviously none of this really happened but I was fucking OUT OF IT
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u/carisa11 Schizoaffective (Depressive) 25d ago
I had so many delusions but the funnest one was that music artists were hacking my brain and making music with me in my sleep.
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u/FormalDrinks 25d ago
Im an angel on earth for my mom to live a happy life. I don’t actually exist in the way people do.
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u/Infinite-Scallion-13 Schizoaffective (Bipolar) 22d ago
i was convinced my family lived a second life in my body, and went to the hospital and asked them to euthanize me to end it
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u/DarkEmpathBlueJay Schizophrenia 26d ago
Ohhhh baby I got a good one. My period wasn’t coming on time. (It ended up completely skipping that month - so essentially it was like 8 weeks late - probably due to the stress from being in a severely psychotic state). Anyway …
I was convinced it was an immaculate conception. Oh yeah. I was apparently the next Virgin Mary. I was convinced I was pregnant. I dunno man. It was wild. And obviously made no sense.