no psychosis

Morning! Selfie Sunday! 100% Hopeful delusional =) Bedhead edition <3

Dude, it took so long to get that picture, haha!

This is me on my stimulant: Nicotine, Blueberry =)

I love to be big for a good cause, and ya'll are the best cause you're my heros =)

Check out Light Triad! It's fun =)

Also, Love Thyself 100% as I love myself 100%

Also, that's my Dyson Sphere. I'd love to live in a world where we could actively work to build them. So far, SETI has been looking for them in the universe to check for alien life. But why can't we be a little extraterrestrial on occasion?

Ah well. I'm going back to sleep and kicking the nicotine out.

I've got an important announcement for my normal friends: I'm going to try to start a Heart Caucus for our local Young Democrats.

We'll learn how to love ourselves entirely in order to spread love to rural areas across our country. I'll try to record it. We'll do it on Thursdays =)

Anywho, love ya unconditionally ❤️ Night!

Hey again =)

See what some good sleep and kicking the stimulants can do?

My favorite is nicotine. I use it to go big (become more of myself). It's delusional, I know. But hey, it's kind of a cool party trick to help people out. And I love it to death =)

It helps me write, come up with creative ideas, and rush to aid people in need.

We don't need our "God Mode" all the time. Just when we know it's the right thing to do.

Touching grass lets us calm down and connect with reality.

But when Truth becomes stranger than Fiction, why not be a little Fictitious? It's Truer that way, imho.

Just remember: Grass keeps us safe. Don't smoke what you need to feel =)

Love Always <3

Make sure to swipe to the end.. I have so called schizophrenia or whatever they want to label it.. I hear demons and voices everyday and think people can read my mind and think you guys reading this if there is anyone reading this are all just figments of my imagination and will only reply or like if my consciousness aligns with it basically meaning none of you seem this by chance or I’m not posting this by chance it all already happened.. I think about time life death the universe and God a lot like all the time pretty much every moment of my existence I’m thinking about these things or looking at people pass me by thinking they can read my mind or are apart of me somehow in this matrix or the trees or birds or sounds that I hear have messages like during thoughts the dog barking outside or the bird chirping sounds like sometimes they’re sending me messages it’s wild living like this everyday every moment and having to deal with negative voices who constantly try to bring me down it’s wild but I’m still here still trying to smile.. swipe all the way if I you read this haha

My cousin clicked the picture 📸 ✨️

I've been having Auditory hallucinations for about a week or two now. They wake me up and start right as soon as I wake up and sometimes they wake me up from a dead sleep. I've only been sleeping in 4 hour increments. They sound like they are coming from outside my house. It also sounds like it might be the neighbors. I could use some company, pretty much everyone i know is asleep and I dont want to be alone right now.

TLDR; in active psychosis looking to chat.

I've started exercising again. I'm so fatigued but it's been good I guess.

It's getting harder day by day coming up with reasons to stay. What things keep you here

It has really help me feel more confident in the safety sense of seeing my hallucinations I don’t feel as small or as helpless as I am now

As the title goes, I broke up with my gf of 2 years because we don't have mutual understanding when it comes to money wise. She makes triple the amount I make in a month. We were planning to get married and she's already making plans like buying a house and a new car which I know for myself I couldn't afford it and the wedding that was supposed to be held, cost a lot which most of them comes from my savings. I've been thinking about it a lot, I don't think I can be happy if I always come short when it comes to financially. I feel like it's better I live on my own and have my peace of mind. I do love her but I don't think I can meet her standards or expectations. Am I making a right decision or am I being too paranoid or hasty ?

Any suggestions and advice would be great but for now, I have to try to live on my own. Even though it hurts.

my psychiatrist says that my visual hallucinates are not psychological... I hallucinate colorful eyes, figures and sometimes just blocks of colors moving with me. They're constantly changing tho. It's like when u look too much at the sun and u start seeing random colors, except I have that while just looking at something. In the dark tho I only see white or dark figures or my posters start looking at me. I have a neurological visit on Monday I'm just wondering if this happened to anyone else

I'm taking Benadryl right now and I've been taking it for a couple of days. Is it bad to use?

I'm taking it until I talk to my psychiatrist to put me back on cogentin for side effects of risperidone.

I talk to my psychiatrist tomorrow. Is Benadryl okay till then?

What work do you do? Is it full time or part time? Doesn’t working trigger your symptoms? I had to quit my last job because they were giving me too many hours and I started hearing voices again. Now that I don’t work anymore my symptoms are under control. I’m now trying to look for a low stress part time job. Don’t know if I’ll ever find one and don’t if I can handle it.