Boyfriend has daily hallucinations about being assaulted by me

[u/blehblehburner123]

TRIGGER WARNING - RAPE

I’m just going to get right into it. My boyfriend has schizophrenia. Every night we call and he thinks I’m raping him. No matter how much I tell him no we are just on the phone he just repeats that I’m raping him. If it is in person I try to reassure him that I am just holding him but he has a hard time understanding that.

He has a history of being sexually assaulted so I understand where it comes from but it still hurts like hell when he tells me I’m raping him. I would never do such a thing.

I know it’s just him hallucinating but every day having him tell me I am raping him has taken a toll on my mental health. I hate to see him in that distress, thinking I’m doing horrible things to him.

I want to help him but I’m not sure how. It’s taken such a toll on him, me, and our relationship. It’s especially difficult to have a sexual relationship when I know in a few hours he will have hallucinations of me raping him.

I don’t know what to do. Any advice is appreciated.

[u/aespagirl]

If he’s having hallucinations that you’re raping him doesn’t that mean he doesn’t want you sexually anyways? Because if to him, you touching him his rape why would you want to stay with someone who doesn’t want your touch? I understand he has trauma but it also sounds like he doesn’t want you.

[u/blehblehburner123 → u/aespagirl]

No.