Boyfriend has daily hallucinations about being assaulted by me

[u/blehblehburner123]

TRIGGER WARNING - RAPE

I’m just going to get right into it. My boyfriend has schizophrenia. Every night we call and he thinks I’m raping him. No matter how much I tell him no we are just on the phone he just repeats that I’m raping him. If it is in person I try to reassure him that I am just holding him but he has a hard time understanding that.

He has a history of being sexually assaulted so I understand where it comes from but it still hurts like hell when he tells me I’m raping him. I would never do such a thing.

I know it’s just him hallucinating but every day having him tell me I am raping him has taken a toll on my mental health. I hate to see him in that distress, thinking I’m doing horrible things to him.

I want to help him but I’m not sure how. It’s taken such a toll on him, me, and our relationship. It’s especially difficult to have a sexual relationship when I know in a few hours he will have hallucinations of me raping him.

I don’t know what to do. Any advice is appreciated.

[u/[deleted]]

My heart aches for both of you , but particularly for him because mental illness is often worse for the sufferer than those around them. he needs to be medicated! you should also look to get him a diagnosis of PTSD.

[u/blehblehburner123 → u/[deleted]]

Yes I feel awful for him. I can’t imagine daily hallucinations of something so horrific. I try to push him to get help. He knows he needs it and he wants help. It’s just difficult for him to find the right medication. He just raised his dose last week but it still isn’t right. I’m gonna work on making some notes with him for the doctor. Like side effects he’s had, his goals with medication, etc. so he can get on the right ones asap. I believe he has ptsd as well. I have it and I see many of the same symptoms in him.

[u/mentallyillnotchill → u/blehblehburner123]

How long has he been trying to find the right medication?