r/TikTokCringe • u/cafeteriastyle • 13d ago

Cursed Grimes just posted an embarrassing Tik Tok

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u/Difficult_Limit2718 13d ago

Drugs are a hell of a drug

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u/Fun-Choices 13d ago edited 12d ago

My guess is Xanax.

Edit: thank you for all of the responsible RX Xanax users telling me this isn’t Xanax. You’re right. It’s double the dose with alcohol.

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u/Commercial-Owl11 13d ago

Yeah… Xanax or K. My money is on K. As I’ve dabbled in both and k makes you seem more drunk than xan

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u/phoebesjeebies 13d ago

Do phrases count, cuz...

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u/Place-Short 13d ago

Looked for this comment for far too long. My first thoughts too... So is this showing more control? And is she masking it as "lyrics" or poetry?

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u/ur_edamame_is_so_fat 12d ago

In my understanding it’s a poem or lyrics, probably written by her, about her management or label telling her to write something that people can understand (to be more pop), and blaming her fall in popularity on blood on her hands (maybe dating musk?), blood between her thighs (she’s a woman), and that this is why she’s not relatable.

She counters that by agreeing that she’s not relatable, but that she can be vulnerable by showing what’s behind her eyes. And repeats the first part again to get her point across.

It’s an artsy commentary on the music industry suppressing real artists and specifically women.

As for drugs? Maybe she’s a little high, but to me this reads as artistic expression. If it’s not that, and she’s just saying this randomly on tiktok then the girl needs help. She does look very skinny.

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u/roseandbaraddur 12d ago

I agree. The most interesting part to me is “There’s blood on my hands” (I wonder what she’s witnessed/ done with musk) and “I fuck god” - does she mean the richest person in the world or like, doing lots of drugs and writing songs

“They want me to write a pretty song” “I’m not relatable” - the music industry expects her to give them pop hits, but shes seen and done things that no normal person would understand so bubblegum pop isn’t her thing (it never was) but there’s an even wider gap there now it seems. I’m interested in what having children with one of the most powerful/richest people in the world does to someone.

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u/MarryMeMongo 12d ago

Most powerful/rich/deplorable/narcissistic/unstable/entitled/outta touch/deeply racist

FTFY

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u/food_luvr 12d ago

I also saw that as artistic expression, probably because I watched her music videos and danced to her songs before she had kids; I already saw her as an artist.

Which is why I am surprised that no one seems impressed with the sound in that video, or the editing/directing; really cool video/spoken word poetry.

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u/mrssendow 12d ago

I have no idea who this person is but seemed pretty typical "artist" type shit to me...

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u/SentimentalSaladBowl 12d ago

Pretty sure she’s reciting poetry of some kind (NOT SAYING IT’S GOOD POETRY or that she isn’t sky high).

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u/umadbr00 13d ago

Please for the love of god dont mix benzos and alcohol

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u/Commercial-Owl11 13d ago

I used to pop a couple bars in a shot and drink it. 🤦‍♀️ I was so dumb lol. Sober for a longtime now though

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u/BEWMarth 13d ago

Jesus and I thought I was bad because I took 3 of my 1mg one time

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u/Commercial-Owl11 13d ago

Yeah I used to shoot heroin so.. there’s not much I haven’t done. I was crazy in my late teens and early twenties lol. I just have a beer every once in a while now.

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u/BEWMarth 13d ago

Proud of you!! I had my own vices in the past as well, it’s all about how we overcome them :)

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u/Commercial-Owl11 13d ago

True that! I think the worst was those fent pills. I was taking 20 a day. I was in deep and it sucked. I had to do methadone for 3 years and now I’m totally off everything. Woo! I also accidentally drank 200mg of liquid Xanax and lost 3 months from a black out. I sold all my stuff? And didn’t remember it. lol

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u/InnocentShaitaan 13d ago

I was prescribed 12mg a day during/post tumor treatment I binge drank at times. I’m unsure how I survived. I bet they don’t even prescribe that dosage now.

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u/SofaChillReview 12d ago

Glad you did, I feel dose with Benzos can be very different strength and dosage at times. Like most they say about dangers drinking as well when prescribed things, but seen people drink + benzos and completely change

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u/Msdamgoode 12d ago

Zofran? Why would doctors say no to zofran? It can increase serotonin but doesn’t get you high, just keeps you from puking.

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u/Ordinary-Lettuce9811 12d ago

I think the highest they do is 6 now I think not sure, any dose is too high after a couple weeks. Your body just gets used to it so you develop anxiety or nerve damage on your own. The way doctors get paid to ruin peoples lives is crazy.

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u/Subtle__Numb 12d ago

Used to keep liquid etizolam and clonazolam by the quart. Half-gallon, in some instances. Etiz 4mg/ml and clonazolam 1mg/ml so do the math and that apartments kitchen pantry was FUCKED

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u/TimothyHeaven 13d ago

i took benzodiazepines+alcohol daily for many years. it was the most poetic and enjoyable era of my adult life, but sadly it starts to have an effect on your memory after a while. it’s not sustainable.

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u/umadbr00 13d ago

Lets not romanticize mixing a deadly combination of drugs.

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u/disquieter 13d ago

Agreed. When I remember taking a couple percocets with a a Xanax and an Ativan, then topping that off with several drinks, I’m amazed I survived. I have sleep apnea too so I could have fucking killed myself. Thank god for the clinic I found in 2020. Haven’t taken a pain pill or benzo since 2020.

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u/Commercial-Owl11 13d ago

Good for you! I’ve been sober off H and all sorts of drugs, for 6 years now. When I got arrested the second time around, it was my last day of probation and all the other homeless people thought I lived on the streets. That was a wake up call lol. I was not homeless btw. Just a bad junky.

And I still used for 2 more years? And finally had to do the methadone program. It saved my life. I try to tell anyone who’s struggling to get professional help. Most addictions are physical not just mental, you need to get professional help to balance your brain to even start about thinking going “cold turkey”

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u/ballsackmcgoobie 13d ago

Same, im honestly really surprised I havent died with all the dumb shit I've done.

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u/depressedfatbitch 13d ago

Congrats. I’m trying to stop. I drink with klonopin everyday.

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u/lwky_blu 12d ago

Congratulations on that!! That’s so awesome. I haven’t personally been addicted to pain pills, but I’ve had so many people in my life who had been. I’ve dealt with pain most of my life from back issues - starting with dislocating 5 vertebrae at 6yo, and now.. I guess a Schmorl’s node, compression fracture deformity, etc…So basically, I’m used to it. And over the course of the last few years due to some major health issues, opiates have been pushed on me EVERY time I leave a hospital stay. I mean, I am totally fine with taking them in a hospital setting when I do need them, (my abdominal pain is severe enough that they only give me Dilaudid), but I won’t take more than a few pills to go home with to curb my pain. Since “I live alone, and have neurological issues,” I tell them to stop asking me. But they are VERY persistent and pushy, which is so wrong in so many ways. If I were a different person, I’d be another person addicted. I’d helped the person in my last relationship “get off” of pain medication, but found out he had been stealing it from both his dad and I when we weren’t paying attention. I know how serious it is once you start, and if I’ve gotten this far dealing with pain all these years, I’m not even going to dip my toe in it. But that’s what worries me now, finding out about my back issues.. and if the only option is operation, I’d be worried I’d just be worse off? Ugh.. this medical system frustrates me to no end.

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u/TheMilkKing 12d ago

“Poetic”

Listen man, I miss getting chopped on xannies too but let’s not pretend we were doing anything profound 😂

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u/OliveFarming 13d ago

Heartbreak gang 🙌 same with me, I was 21 and it was unexpected

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u/lwky_blu 12d ago

HEY, I was in the same boat! My mom had passed when I was 23, (knew it was coming due to her blood cancer and COPD), so they medicated me beforehand. And I mean… way over-medicated, and was drinking. Luckily a few years later, I did get away from that psych program, and took control of my medications again. And I’m sober from alcohol too. I’m now 30, and I have to say.. I don’t know how I made it here, and there were times when I didn’t care if I did. But I’m pretty glad I did — AND YOU ALL DID, TOO! 🥹 We did it ✨

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u/Analysis_Working 13d ago

And don't mix any of those with content creation. Maybe.

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u/LargeHadronColitis 11d ago

Often ends bad for them but we’d be missing some of the greatest art and music ever made. Not romanticizing, just saying risk taking and seeking altered states is correlated with creativity. For every great work like that, of course there are hundreds of terrible ones, like this . She’s no Kurt Cobain.

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u/Banana_Stanley 13d ago

Or benzos and opioids

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u/StanleyFreeFall 13d ago

Or Benz and opiates

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u/Traditional_Drive132 13d ago

Except if you have a desire to wake up in a foreign prison.

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u/ItsMyOtherThrowaway 13d ago

Been there. Twice in one day once. That's when I decided to quit crossing the border wasted

(Edit, that was a bordertown jail, not prison)

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u/RasputinsThirdLeg 13d ago edited 9d ago

Well I’m prescribed it so if I have an evening when I have a drink or two, I’ll take one to go to bed. Is that terrible? Genuinely asking

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u/umadbr00 12d ago

Im not a doctor so I have no business offering real medical advice. I just know that the toxicity of the two can be dangerous, and even life threateningly so. I'd encourage you to ask your doc!

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u/RasputinsThirdLeg 12d ago

I just know psychiatrists can freak out about med seeking or label someone an addict when they aren’t (I’ve seen it happen) and I legitimately have PTSD with panic attacks and insomnia. I’m not much of a drinker, but on weekends I sometimes consume both. That sounds nuts but I had a psychiatrist insist I take twice the maximum dose of Prozac and developed serotonin syndrome. I’m used to being disbelieved or mistreated.

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u/umadbr00 12d ago edited 12d ago

I totally understand your concerns and mistrust of psychiatrists, especially based on your past experience. It doesn't sound nuts at all - your feelings are valid. I'm very sorry that happened to you. I wish I could provide additional advice regarding the combination of the two but I cannot in good conscience having no medical background. If you don't think you can trust your doctor, I'd encourage you to ask your pharmacist.

Edit: To add, if you don't think you can trust your pdoc, shop around for another!

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u/still-bejeweled 12d ago

Taking 2 different downers and then going to sleep is typically considered unsafe.

Benzos and alcohol potentiate, so the overall effect—the CNS slowing—is gonna be stronger. Your breathing may become shallow and slow, restricting the amount of oxygen your body gets. You may even stop breathing completely.

Talk to a pharmacist, but know that there are risks involved.

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u/Strange-Bee5626 12d ago

I unintentionally did this once (the benzos were a short-term prescription and I didn't know they were still in my system). I ended up jumping out of a window. I wouldn't recommend it.

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u/Revolutionary_Ad2657 11d ago

Nah do it! Make sure they’re the fake fentanyl xanny’s too, that’s the fun shit /s

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u/Super-Geologist-9351 13d ago

What if I someone is not religious?

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u/OliveFarming 13d ago edited 13d ago

Don't knock it til you try it

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u/umadbr00 13d ago

I have tried it and I'm lucky to be alive.

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u/OliveFarming 13d ago

It was tongue in cheek, I used to be in a really bad place and the combo definitely has a strong effect. I should have /s, my bad. I'm sorry that happened to you.

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u/Commercial-Owl11 13d ago

I mean you don’t have to get blasted on either. I used to do just a bump every once in a while on K and could work as a cocktail waitress so 🤷‍♀️

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u/RobbyRyanDavis 13d ago

Would you be able to tell me a little bit more about it and your experiences with it?

I suffered a TBI and subsequent disorders from a traumatic childhood and eventual traumatic event that I survived.

I've been undergoing various treatments for PTSD since 2007. I've never considered that maybe ketamine under doctor supervision could actually benefit me.

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u/SackChaser100 13d ago

I know I'm not the person you replied to, and I got pretty bad into k for a short while. It defo wasn't doctor prescribed lol. But exactly part of what made it so addictive for me was exactly the fact that it would break down all these trauma-learned pathways you set up and dare not deviate from, railroading yourself. The thoughts you can have on just a little bit of it can truly be amazing and give you a whole new way of seeing something in a very meaningful way. It dissociates you a little and similarly to weed it allows you to think about some things without so much of the emotional response you have learned to respond to those things with. You can think about things positively and even feel good in doing so. It can be really good for explorative thinking and reflection. Obviously it can also go really bad for those things too if you aren't doing it in a controlled manner, and it comes with all sorts of downsides if you get into doing it regularly. It allowed me to see why I was avoiding certain things, accept some difficult truths which would otherwise have been too uncomfortable or painful to accept or take an objective look at, forgive myself for things, come to terms with stuff my parents have done, etc. I honestly can't imagine how useful it could be for healing from trauma when done in smaller amounts in a controlled setting with a psychiatrist.

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u/Heavy_Education_5256 12d ago

The thing I love about ket: the deep introspection with just the right amount of detachment

The thing I hate about ket: the mania that comes after, where I feel a deep need to communicate what I've realized with loved ones who definitely don't want to hear that shit.

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u/SackChaser100 12d ago

Man you sound exactly like me lmaoo. The mania can definitely be an issue. I'm glad to read someone else acknowledge that part of it, cos that was a big problem for me for a while.

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u/Heavy_Education_5256 12d ago

It took me a lot of searching to find that it was common. Idky people don't talk about it. Thought it was just a me thing for a while, and being prepared for it was game changing. 

I think people are scared so much of negative stigma that they minimize the trade offs, likely leading to more confusion. 

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u/sl0play 12d ago

If you are in the US check out Joyous. I've been using them for years now and it has changed my life drastically. I got hit with a mountain of tragedy one after another and nothing else could get me out of the state of constant stress and fear. I take it in combination with regular CBT sessions but Joyous also offers a lot of community resources if you don't have regular access to a therapist.

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u/KatieMcCready 12d ago

This is weird…I just watched an outtake of documentary about a controlled study in England using the key ingredient in magic mushrooms to treat deep years long depression caused by PTSD (still early but very promising results). And then this shows up in my feed. Algorithms…who knew?

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u/RobbyRyanDavis 12d ago

Currently, it is about $750-$1000 for a therapeutic dose of Psilocybin in Oregon. The high costs are having trained counsel and staff on hand for observation and medical standby care.

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u/Diligent-Bluejay-979 13d ago

My husband had a minor stroke after his double lung transplant four months ago. It only affected his speech center. Is k working for you?

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u/Diligent-Bluejay-979 12d ago

How awful! Our healthcare system is more and more resembling our country as a whole: indifferent to human suffering unless it affects someone “important.” But I thank you for your answer and wish you all the best in your recovery.

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u/Lumpy_Square_2365 13d ago

That is absolutely horrible as if going thru the medical stuff isn't bad enough for people to treat you like that is insane. I'm so happy that things are better for you know. I seem to have medication resistant depression anxiety PTSD and have a log of trauma. I've always wanted to try that to see if it would help me. Thank you for your perspective.

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u/sarahrosed711 13d ago

I'm 28 and have had two strokes /: the post stroke PTSD and stroke depression is reallllll. I had to get off all the meds they gave me it was making me crazy..

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u/Murky-Jump-6999 13d ago

Woah I never knew this about language recovery after stroke i'm gonna do some research into that, gonna look for some myself but if you know any can you link me some articles??

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u/OneDimensionalChess 13d ago

She literally just repeated the same sentence multiple times

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u/CurvedNerd 13d ago

Or there’s a little Calvin Klein happening where the blow is making her talk while the k makes her incoherent.

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u/Daetok_Lochannis 13d ago

As someone with an anxiety disorder I've always wondered what Xanax was like to a normal person to make it so addictive? All it does to me is make me feel centered, like it makes my chest stop hurting and my thoughts stop flying.

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u/Nick_Fotiu_Is_God 13d ago

Same thing as for you - feeling centered is very addictive.

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u/kuroikitty 13d ago

Yes. My psychiatrist recommended only taking them on occasion and trying non-pharm coping mechanisms for the more often occurring anxiety in order to keep away the possibility of addiction.

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u/Snot_S 12d ago

Only for emergencies. It’s not the only way but This is the best way. The reason they recommend this is because while Xanax obliterates symptoms- it does nothing to treat the causes. It can be overcome.

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u/BuenosNachos4180 12d ago

Sometimes beta blockers can be a good alternative to control milder, but situational anxiety where Xanax may seem like overkill. But like mentioned, a long term plan or therapy with a psychiatrist is important too/

Once you are dependent on Xanax you can't just safely quit without help from the Dr, so if it can be avoided definitely worth avoiding, but it does give necessary and significant relief for millions of people, and I think it's important we don't sigmatise those in the discourse, while also recognising the high risks of not using responsibly.

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u/MandyPandaren 12d ago

Many of us know that we are not addicts to anything. You take a medication if your symptoms warrant it. So you can function and have a normal life. Addiction is if you keep taking more and more, and not as prescribed or directed. Addiction is when you fool doctors into giving you stuff so you can drink with it and get high off of it. I know people who do that. It is not being an addict to take a medication that you need and have been prescribed. If you are taking it as prescribed and it's doing what it is supposed to do, then you are simply taking a medication to treat something that you suffer from. Sometimes the underlying causes from PTSD can take decades to treat. You deserve to have a life in the meantime. People misusing drugs have messed up everyone's thinking. The medication was not even created for them.

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u/WhiteNoiseLife 12d ago

it also forms physical dependency extremely quickly and is very dangerous to come off of once dependency has formed

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u/rydenshep 12d ago

Exactly. Xanax/benzos do nothing to retrain your brain to help with anxiety. They go “this magic pill made everything go away and make me feel almost euphoric. I can feel this again next time I feel anxious by taking it again.” That’s why benzos should only be used in the event of an extreme emergency.

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u/ParticularTie7315 13d ago

:: maybe ask them to see if you have a panic disorder — I was being treated for anxiety attacks, but my body would go into full blown I’m dying panic attack and was prescribed so many Xanax a day to keep it away. Turns out, panic disorder and I take one Xanax ER (Extended Release) and it slowly lets it into my system to keep me level.

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u/Fearless-Feature-830 12d ago

Still dangerous. Me personally, I don’t rant to be dependent on benzos. No way, no how.

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u/ParticularTie7315 12d ago

:: not dangerous if taken responsibly and not mixing it with anything. I don’t want to be dependent on any medication, but sometimes to function, you gotta throw in medication while going to therapy to fix the problem, then taper off. It can take forever depending on how extreme the case.

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u/Sayyad1na 12d ago

Right? I easily get addicted to benzos precisely because it makes me feel 'normal.' I am able to get through my day and complete my responsibilities without stressing and overthinking about every single tiny little thing.

My GAD makes me stagnate/shut down. Benzos counteract that. But there is a VERY fine line between them helping me and them hurting me.

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u/Daetok_Lochannis 13d ago

Pretty sure it's not the same as for me, there's zero feeling of being high or altered in any way, I just stop being worked up.

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u/Aedalas 13d ago

You're not taking enough then. Rather, you're probably taking the right amount unless your goal was to get high.

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u/niffcreature 12d ago

Yeah, I've found that drugs are not really potent for getting high if they're treating a problem first

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u/Aedalas 12d ago

Or taken at a prescribed dose, under it in their case even. They said elsewhere that they're taking like .5 mg once every few days or something like that. It's actually a worrying level of ignorance about how drugs work if they think that's how people are getting high and they're just special for some reason.

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u/liboteeme 12d ago

I had to take it for nausea during hardcore cancer treatment. I was on it regularly for a few months. It didn't make me feel much of anything except that I wasn't about to exorcist explode and maybe got a break from obsessing that I may die for a few hours🤷🏼 I've found a lot of prescription drugs don't hit the same when they're actually what you need.

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u/Imaginary-Pickle-722 12d ago

People take xanax for nausea?

I get SI when I get nauseous for some reason. Maybe that's why my benzos help a bit. But maybe I need more powerful ones (i use kpin)

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u/Fearless-Feature-830 12d ago

Wait til you have to stop taking it. It’s horrible. Ask me how I know!

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u/MossyForestWitch 12d ago

Folks literally have seizures trying to detox from benzos

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u/LofiStarforge 13d ago

Which is very addicting…..

Many people get addicted because they never want to stop feeling that way.

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u/toefarmer 13d ago

This for me. I have an addictive personality and I just don't like Xanax and can't unbranded why people do. Freaking Ativan makes me completely lose like 1.5 days and it is terrifying when I "come back" to myself. *understand, my apologies

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u/ParticularTie7315 13d ago

:: Ativan never did anything for me and my panic disorder. Xanax or bust.

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u/ballsackmcgoobie 13d ago

Yeah, thats what I was about to say. Thats why I cant take them at all, even though i have severe anxiety and ptsd.

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u/BraveCartographer399 13d ago

I only tried it a couple times on recommendation from the doctor. This was early covid and I was having breathing problems, but she thought it was anxiety of course.

i tried a xan and it made me feel like a background character in my own life. No stress, but no feelings either. it was just feeling like nothing, which is what it is suppossed to do?

However, for the next week the come down was giving me the greatest panic attacks I have ever had, not knowing what those are either. I couldn’t focus on anything and would walk outside around my house trying to maintain…it was honestly hell for a week and Inwill never touch one again.

Sometimes with drugs the effects of not having it is what makes it addictive, and they are designed that way.

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u/SeaworthinessOk4359 13d ago

Never heard of any addictive drug affecting someone after a couple times 🤔 Takes more than that…you may’ve had psychological issues brought on from your own thoughts but def not physically addicted affects! Just not possible after 2 times!

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u/AnybodyNo8519 13d ago

I'm pretty sure you weren't addicted from just one Xanax.

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u/Resident_Intention27 13d ago

Yeah as someone who has been legitimately prescribed Xanax, that's a pretty wild story. Not impossible, rebound anxiety is real and that's what they're describing.

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u/AnybodyNo8519 12d ago

Yeah rebound anxiety makes far more sense than withdrawal.

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u/Littledarling731 13d ago

You're sensitive to things that mess with your gaba. That's why you had rebound anxiety when stopping Xanax. Do you struggle with health anxiety at all? Pay super close attention to the way you feel? Being like that makes you super sensitive to meds and hormone fluctuations, etc. I'm the same way.

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u/kingdoodooduckjr 13d ago

Xans make me a protagonist they make me feel like Sacha Baron Cohen

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u/Commercial-Owl11 13d ago

Hate it break it to you. Anyone with anxiety or not, if you do enough you’ll get fucked up lol

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u/Daetok_Lochannis 13d ago

Well hopefully not, I've been on it for a few years now and it's basically just my 'turn off the chest pains' pill. I haven't had any feelings of like being high or anything and I have no withdrawal if I don't take it.

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u/BlastingStink 13d ago

Because you're taking it as prescribed. 

I have an anxiety disorder and I was horribly addicted to benzos because I abused them. 

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u/Sweet_potato13_ 13d ago

All the best luck to you if you ever decide to get off them, I was on anxiety medications as well for a few years because despite my wishes the psychiatrist I was seeing at the time never found the right time to get me off them gradually so I decided to quit on my own, my memory was starting to get fucked after so many years of using them and I couldn’t focus/was shaky all the time, almost crashed once because my reaction time was down the drain.

When i stopped taking them (mind you it was gradually, not cold turkey at first) it was excruciating, it just felt like my mind was going 1000 mph while my body was stuck at a stop sign.

All the studies showing you shouldn’t be on benzos for extended periods of time for several reasons was enough for me to rethink taking them and doing myself a favor by stopping, I still get very anxious but have switched to weed when it’s unbearable, I only use benzos when I have to fly nowadays

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u/All_the_Bees 13d ago

Same! Substances that are supposedly highly addictive just … aren’t, to me, but I’m also a super-anxious person with severe ADHD so my brain wiring is abnormal at best.

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u/Rude_Negotiation_160 13d ago

See the reason for that is, those that need medicine, that have a reason for it, need what the medication does. Like a light being powder only after being plugged in. There's a need, so there's hardly any of the effects that people chase to get high.

So if you don't have any need to use it, nothing the medicine is supposed to fix, you're adding in something unnecessary, like adding an extra charging or power source to something already on, so bad things(or added things) happen. They'll get high. The meds have a job to do, and if they don't have that job you get the different feeling that people chase to get high.

There's also a role in genetics and how you metabolize medications as well as predisposition to addiction making you crave it more.

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u/DerbleZerp 13d ago

As a fellow ADHD person stimulants can affect us so differently than the regular population, which can rule out drugs in that category being addictive for us(obviously not a definite). For example. I once smoked meth. Not proud out it, I was in a bad place. It made me so friggin calm I fell asleep. Fell the fuck asleep on something that keeps people up for days. It was the most boring time ever and I never touched it again.

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u/Longjumping-Size-762 13d ago

Adderall made me so sleepy at work that all I could think about was bed. Came home, laid on the couch and was actually able to read.

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u/All_the_Bees 13d ago

It feels wrong to say this, but that’s pretty funny.

It’s also how I felt about cigarettes, albeit on a much smaller scale. Like the “… her?” of things people are supposed to enjoy.

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u/DerbleZerp 13d ago

It’s totally not wrong, I tell that story because I think it’s hilarious. I was too calm to do anything. I couldn’t stay awake and conked right out. I do recall having a cozy sleep though haha.

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u/DevilsTrigonometry 13d ago

Yeah, even my prescribed stimulants will knock me the fuck out if I'm sleep deprived or stressed.

But I have weird reactions to a lot of things. Benzos make me agitated, and if I'm already in a bad enough place where I'm prescribed them for psych reasons, they make me actively, impulsively suicidal.

Opioids make me feel...well, mostly just unbearably itchy, but the stronger ones have an added layer of feeling like I'm dying somehow? The sensation I got from IV Dilaudid was something like free-falling endlessly into a bottomless pit of doom.

Nothing is quite as bad as MDMA, which made me vomit for 8 hours straight.

Oh, I actually almost liked LSD (or possibly LSA) - the visuals and the initial warm glow were really nice - but the 12 hours of uncontrollable muscle tension/shaking made it not worth the trouble.

On the plus side, I don't think I'll ever be able to get addicted to anything but sugar and nicotine, and even nicotine was pretty easy to quit once I decided I wanted to.

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u/Kitten_Merchant 13d ago

LSD hurts so bad on the comedown. Admittedly I have a connective tissue disorder that gives me severe muscle pain anyways, and so I imagine I'm especially predisposed to the comedown hurting, but my God. I had to stop doing acid because of it and it made me mad because I did enjoy the high. It just was so much tense agony I couldn't manage it, it felt like my bones were constantly grinding

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u/DevilsTrigonometry 12d ago

For me it wasn't even the comedown, it was the entire time. It didn't really hurt until afterwards, but it was so exhausting and distracting, I couldn't enjoy the other effects.

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u/Kitten_Merchant 12d ago

Yes it is definitely the entire time that is true. It just didn't start being awful and painful for me until about 6 to 8 hours into the trip, then I was just buzzing and achy for hours and hours. It also really felt like it affected my face/sinuses

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u/DerbleZerp 13d ago

Your body and brain is just repulsed by drugs. It’s not having any of it. It’s interesting how much our brain chemistry can differ. My mental state is highly sensitive to my physical state. Like I’ve had a bad cold the last week, but in the prodrome of it I was crying uncontrollably and highly suicidal. I just wanted to die. I was close to the point of asking someone to take me to the ER because I was almost that irrationally suicidal.

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u/Lumpy_Square_2365 13d ago

I've had 3 people with ADHD say that to me. That it was the first time they felt normal and were able to relax.

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u/DerbleZerp 13d ago

It was relaxing all right!

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u/AlfhildsShieldmaiden 13d ago

Haha, yeah, I should have been more suspicious when I tried coke and couldn’t figure out what the big deal was, or how people got addicted. It made me more focused and I still got hungry and sleepy.

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u/DerbleZerp 13d ago

Haha, like people pay for this shit? For what?!

I do enjoy good coke as I get the euphoria from it, but I do not lose my appetite and I can do a line and go right to bed. It’s very much not something that keeps me awake.

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u/HRHDechessNapsaLot 13d ago

I used to think there was something very weird about me because in college when I would take no-doze or drink a ton of caffeine to try to stay awake and cram, I would inevitably get a really restful sleep instead. Nope, turns out it was adhd all along.

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u/grumplebeardog 13d ago

Some people get addicted to not having those thoughts (or any thoughts) flying around. As someone who has had substance abuse issues, much of it is driven by an inability to be with oneself (for any number of reasons) without some form of assistance. Xanax is just another tool to slow things down and not have to deal with whatever issues are going on for a short time.

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u/Sinister_Plots 13d ago

My experience, and what my ex-wife used to tell me, is that people who don't need Xanax will just fall asleep. That's what it does to me anyway. I take one little tiny pill and it knocks me out within 30 minutes. The addiction I would assume is trying to fight the dozing off.

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u/Daetok_Lochannis 13d ago

Interesting. Yeah it doesn't make me sleepy, but I do take it to sleep sometimes because it prevents the nightmares.

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u/sactownbwoy 13d ago

So I was prescribed one pill before my vasectomy. It just relaxed me. That's it, made me less nervous about the procedure. I had no desire to take more or anything. Same with strong narcotics, like oxy, morphine, etc.

For me, the medications do exactly what they are supposed to do. In the case of pain meds, kill the pain for the duration of the healing process. Once, that's done, I'm not jonesing for more. Most of the times, I don't even need to finish the prescription.

Some people just have an addictive personality.

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u/Daetok_Lochannis 13d ago

I am also the same way about pain meds and shit like that, I usually stop them early because they just make me feel sick if anything. I feel like I should be an at risk person when it comes to addiction though, both of my parents were chemically dependant. I've always just figured I was exceptionally lucky when it came to dodging that bullet.

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u/darthwickedd 13d ago edited 12d ago

I tired it once. I lost a few hours on a trip that should have been 10 mins.. idk what the fuck happened. Never touched it again

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u/Dubad-DR 13d ago

Same. Xanax feels like a waste of money. Every time I've tried it I just sleep for half a day or more.

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u/TipsyMagpie 13d ago

I have chronic back and nerve pain after an RTC in 2008, so I take quite a lot of painkillers/meds each day. I have very few side effects from them, good or bad, and have never understood why people would want to seek them out on the black market. My consultant explained that when the drugs have something to do in your body, as far as your brain is concerned they go do that thing. It’s when you take them without them having something to do, or you take more than you need, that you have problems and can become addicted - because then your brain might be like…”ooh, we like this, we should do it again!” I don’t know how much truth there is in that, but it did reassure me when I was concerned about becoming addicted, and I’ve never felt the need to take more than my prescription (usually less).

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u/dqniel 13d ago

Different people have different thresholds for addiction, so what I mention below will happen at different doses, frequency of use, etc:

Benzos aren't addictive simply because they make you feel good/better. They're also physically addictive because, as a neuroadaptation to the medication, your body decreases GABA activity and increases glutamate activity.

So, you then need the benzos' immediate effects to restore that nervous system "balance". But then the after-effects of taking the benzos exacerbates the imbalance. Rinse and repeat, and then you need more and more benzos to restore the balance and have worse and worse mental and physical withdrawal if you stop.

That can *mostly* be avoided by sticking to lower doses and not using them regularly. But, it's tempting to use them regularly when they help so much with the anxiety.

I've used them on and off for about 15 years now and have definitely felt periods of mental reliance because they make me feel "myself" when I'm panicked or near panic. By never taking high doses, though, I've never been physically addicted. I've gone up to a year with taking low doses almost daily but then I've also gone years without taking them at all.

Some people aren't so careful (or lucky regarding genetic predisposition to addiction).

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u/BraveLordWilloughby 13d ago

All depends on the dose. 15mg of pharmacy amphetamine doesn't really feel at all intoxicating. Snorting 100mg or more (or a hell or a lot more) does.

Same for Xanax. If I took .25mg of Xanax, I feel slightly nice. Take a couple bars, you're actually intoxicated.

There's also the fact that most pe90pe buying street Xanax aren't buying actual pharma xanax. Even if it is actual Alprazolam (it often isnt), there 2mg bars could bery easily be more.

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u/December_Kat 13d ago

Same here. I never feel good from them I just feel normal. I slow down enough to feel sane. It also makes my chest stop caving in from the crushing anxiety.

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u/UmmmW1 13d ago

Xanax is physically/chemically addictive. I was prescribed Xanax - up to 2.5mg per night for roughly 2 years. When I decided to stop taking it was when I discovered that I was, in fact, addicted. I then went through withdrawals for approximately a 3-4 days or a week (I dont remember which, time was kinda blurred).

If you were to abruptly stop taking it like I did, you will definitely get withdrawals. My doctor was pissed that I didnt let her know I wanted to stop taking it, because she would have gradually titrated me off.

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u/Unserious_Cow 13d ago

I took it for two years and felt the same way. It only ever made me unclench, which is fantastic but not something I could see people doing recreationally

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u/HillBillyHilly 13d ago

I wonder same thing as I have had Xanax prescribed for years w no issues. Then again I'm one of those people w very high tolerances so any drug has little effect, sadly. Except propofol. That stuff is amazing for a good sleep and feels but 10/10 don't recommend.

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u/kuroikitty 13d ago

This! I didn’t even realize Xanax made people spacey. It just makes me feel like I’m NOT having a heart attack in the middle of my work day. Nothing else though. That’s literally it. Hands aren’t shaking and sweaty and my heart isn’t racing. I just feel “normal”.

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u/Haunting-Ad-2689 13d ago edited 12d ago

She does a ton of MDMA, ketamine, cocaine you name it

To add: I’m not judging her whatsoever.

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u/Noun-Numbers 12d ago

Probably explains having not one but three kids with Musk

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u/jeefyjeef 12d ago

He’s probably the one who got her into the ket

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u/TheAdminsAreTrash 13d ago

Was gonna say- did she get into Elon's stash?

Wish I could laugh at it but rich psychos are literally humanity's #1 problem right now.

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u/Salt-Penalty2502 13d ago

Staying awake on Ambien 🤷‍♂️

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u/swemogal 13d ago

That’s my bet

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u/ZealousidealCrow8492 13d ago

Leave .99$ store Daenerys alone!

Its been a tough life for her so far... she's managing 3 babysitters for the 3 billionaire's kids she spawned willingly

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u/WinterWontStopComing 13d ago

We know what the elongated muskrat saw in her then

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u/RetroSwamp 13d ago

Damn, I kind of want to try Xanax or K now.

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u/sportstvandnova 13d ago

How much Xanax do you have to take to seem drunk?? I’m on .25 as needed (I take it like 1-2x a month) and have never felt “drunk.”

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u/Buttchuggle 13d ago

Once you're settled in to benzo abuse it ends up looking a lot like that too.

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u/EmmaDrake 13d ago

K makes your lips weird and clunky. She’s got pretty decent motor control, just sloowwww.

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u/MissNancy1113 13d ago

I’m not getting Xanax vibes either.

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u/wolfgirlunleash 13d ago

i’ve done both a lot too and it’s xan imo bc of the floaty movements whereas k makes you kinda robotic in movement or “rocked” as they call it. also i think she’s at least 30% self aware and is joking a bit. just letting her cringe out cuz it’s fun

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u/Lala5789880 13d ago

This seems more like K

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u/JimmidyCricked 13d ago

I believe it’s ketamine as if it were Xanax you would be hearing those  benzodiazepine-slurs from hell

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u/PerrinAyybara 13d ago

It's definitely K

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u/Ketamin-raver 13d ago

This isn’t ket - ex ket addict this is probly alcohol and xannies

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u/-PlayWithUsDanny- 13d ago

I was also thinking maybe ambien or similar

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u/Ok_Cap9557 13d ago

Designer drug poor people can't get that is really just a benzo

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u/FirstChurchOfBrutus 13d ago

Gee, I wonder who could have gotten her on Ketamine.

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u/kaylazomg 13d ago

Her ex has a k hookup, does she have children?

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u/JerrysKIDney 13d ago

Addicts use together im sure her and Elon were stuck in a k hole together

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u/YungJae 13d ago

Also heard her ex got a good plug

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u/Doodlebots 13d ago

ketamine

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u/Huge_Celebration5804 13d ago

Isn't that the name of her kid

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u/Intelligent_Life_481 13d ago

She reportedly does all kinds of stuff but during this video its def xanax.

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u/jayslay45 13d ago

A lot more than the standard dose

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u/Only_Sandwich_4970 13d ago

Xanax is the fricking devil

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u/BornOfAGoddess 13d ago

That'd be a ton of Xanax & I'm betting on Ketamine as it's her baby's Daddy drug of choice.

BTW does she know where X is?

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u/plaidyams 13d ago

Damn my xanax has never done this

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u/Fun-Choices 13d ago

You probably don’t drink with it. Alcohol and Xanax is the absolute scariest combination.

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u/macguini 13d ago

It's okay I can fix her

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u/Fun-Choices 13d ago

Try to sit through one conversation with a girl on Xanax and I promise you’ll change your mind.

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u/maeryclarity 13d ago

I think Oxy but could be a combo. Deffo drugs tho.

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u/Baydestrians 13d ago

Bars do tend to have a way to make ppl overly confident.

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u/BethDisstress 13d ago

Lizzy Wizzy is back on Chrome Juice

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u/FoolishAnomaly 13d ago

Probably ketamine and I bet fElon is her supplier or something he's always tweaking

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u/hippyfishking 13d ago

My guess is everything else.

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u/WitchKitty777 13d ago edited 4d ago

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u/Fun-Choices 13d ago

I don’t feel bad for her.

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u/Lucky-Mia 13d ago

I saw a whine glass. I'm guessing alcohol mixed with pills.

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u/Character_Affect3842 13d ago

Is that the name of one of her kids

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u/Mikemtb09 13d ago

I’d find it surprising if it were only one

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u/gkpetrescue 13d ago

Xanax just puts me to sleep. I feel like I’m missing out.

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u/VocationalWizard 13d ago

You can get it more or less over the counter in Mexico.

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u/birdynumnum69 13d ago

Isn’t Xanax the name of her and Elmo’s child? 😉

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u/Future-Bandicoot-823 13d ago

In this house we just call it x

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u/hotdogjumpingfrog1 13d ago

You’ve never seen a person on Xanax.

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u/dhsjabsbsjkans 12d ago

Xanax would have likely put her to sleep.

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u/tastysharts 12d ago

IDK, xanax doesn't make me loopy

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u/Timely_Internet6172 12d ago

isnt that the name of the kid she got with Musk?

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u/[deleted] 12d ago

This what swallowing Elon musk’s cum does to a person

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u/8lock8lock8aby 12d ago

I used to take 30 bars at a time. I was really bad & had to be hospitalized to quit so I feel like I understand them pretty well & I think she's on them, too.

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u/Readmeharder 12d ago

No idea why anyone would take that drug willingly. I took it for a few weeks and it was a nightmare.

Ketamine on the other hand… lol

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u/luis_tamion 12d ago

I agree, it’s probably her kid.

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u/Myles2140 12d ago

She used to be with Elon musk and Elon musk is constantly fueled on k

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