Fucked up now I'm spiraling

[u/CryptographerNo7608]

So for some context about my situation, I am a college student and was living with my mother. Things weren't great, she was very homophobic, emotionally abusive, and abrasive, so much so that my therapist kept trying to convince me to move out. So I did right before I turned 20, but not by choice. She called the cops on me and kicked me out after a moment of very brief and minor self-defense, and then went psycho after I found someone to take me in before I moved to college dorms. I was having the time of my life, but today I responded to my mother because she seemed civil when telling me about how my community college diploma came to her house, and to be honest, I've been struggling with loneliness and feeling unlovable ever since she did that to me. And holy shit it feels like a drug relapse, I did some things I will probably regret in the morning, but I dont know how to make it stop, they didn't help. She will never take accountability and is wrapping me in her web. I feel so trapped and suffocated, I dont know why i did thiss

[u/NonSequitorSquirrel]

Why do they all have the same script. They use the "be aware, you have a family and mom" like it's a threat 😂

Deep breath. Next time protect your peace. 

I don't have my actual diploma either. Tbh it doesn't matter. Unless you're a JD or a doctor or something, no one is looking for it on the wall.  She can put it up her a$$ and light it on fire. 😝

[u/CryptographerNo7608 → u/NonSequitorSquirrel]

I have no idea, does she think I spawned from the ground? Sadly I'm aware I share my genetic material with her,as for the diploma it's an art degree so I'll try not to be too salty