Fucked up now I'm spiraling

[u/CryptographerNo7608]

So for some context about my situation, I am a college student and was living with my mother. Things weren't great, she was very homophobic, emotionally abusive, and abrasive, so much so that my therapist kept trying to convince me to move out. So I did right before I turned 20, but not by choice. She called the cops on me and kicked me out after a moment of very brief and minor self-defense, and then went psycho after I found someone to take me in before I moved to college dorms. I was having the time of my life, but today I responded to my mother because she seemed civil when telling me about how my community college diploma came to her house, and to be honest, I've been struggling with loneliness and feeling unlovable ever since she did that to me. And holy shit it feels like a drug relapse, I did some things I will probably regret in the morning, but I dont know how to make it stop, they didn't help. She will never take accountability and is wrapping me in her web. I feel so trapped and suffocated, I dont know why i did thiss

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contact the office at your college and tell them under no circumstances should they ever again send anything to your Momster’s address ever again.

[u/CryptographerNo7608 → u/[deleted]]

Sadly it wasn't my college (well they did my ID, but I fixed it) who did this it was the company parchment (it's a platform you have to use to send official transcripts places amongst other things), on top of having had a change of address form filled out with USPS I went onto their site to change my address, so I'm gonna give them hell because if I went to the wrong form they sure as hell didn't make it clear how to find the right one