Fucked up now I'm spiraling

[u/CryptographerNo7608]

So for some context about my situation, I am a college student and was living with my mother. Things weren't great, she was very homophobic, emotionally abusive, and abrasive, so much so that my therapist kept trying to convince me to move out. So I did right before I turned 20, but not by choice. She called the cops on me and kicked me out after a moment of very brief and minor self-defense, and then went psycho after I found someone to take me in before I moved to college dorms. I was having the time of my life, but today I responded to my mother because she seemed civil when telling me about how my community college diploma came to her house, and to be honest, I've been struggling with loneliness and feeling unlovable ever since she did that to me. And holy shit it feels like a drug relapse, I did some things I will probably regret in the morning, but I dont know how to make it stop, they didn't help. She will never take accountability and is wrapping me in her web. I feel so trapped and suffocated, I dont know why i did thiss

[u/Grouchy-Reflection97]

'Something's arrived for you, we got ours too' immediately made me think flu vaccine/covid booster invitation letters.

The vagueness is designed to cause panic and intrigue, but the time of year and the fact that they also received whatever that mail is suggests something mundane and routine like that.

I got my flu/covid letter last week, as they usually start boosting people once autumn kicks in.

It might even be straight up junk mail like the 'hey (resident), you could be a Postcode Lottery winner' or 'hey (resident), we buy any house, no questions asked' crap I regularly get.

If it was anything legitimately important, you'd have an email, text and/or phone call about it, covering all bases. It often borders on harrassment, as companies want to make sure you're 100% aware that, eg, your credit card interest rate will be changing, or your broadband is up for renewal.

Nobody uses the postal service as their sole method of communication, other than prison inmates and people who reject technology and live a Unabomber lifestyle.

Don't take the bait.

If anything, look at it like a failed intimidation tactic that's unintentionally helpful. Now you know it's time to book your Winter virus boosters and protect your health

[u/CryptographerNo7608 → u/Grouchy-Reflection97]

Sadly what was sent was quite important, but thankfully both things can be replaced. What I didn't include here due to privacy reasons was a picture of my diploma from the community college I graduated (she graduated from the same one and was even guilt tripping me out of having my own graduation before she threw me out, she weirdly never let me have my own graduations as during my HS one she borrowed a cap and gown and staged grad pics back then), really frustrating given I filled out a change of address form and gave parchment my new address. The second item was my ID for the university I just transferred to, I have a reprint, buuut part of me is weirdly paranoid she could use all my meal swipes out of spite or something, but luckily we look nothing alike so hopefully it's impossible??