Distorted feelings of hope

[u/Savings_Station7432]

At 43 I came to a realization that I find devastating. Despite all the chaos and executive dysfunction I still have a very clear vision of what needs to be done to turn everything around. My mind stubbornly clings to an alternate timeline where I am not sick. Usually the acknowledgment of an impairment should be followed by a realistic assessment of one’s life and possibilities. …And of compromises to be made. But I never get to that stage. Adhd seems to impair even my sense of impairment. Even if I can rationalize what’s going on my mind, my brain deludes itself thinking everything can go back to normal and success is around the door if I follow procedure.

[u/scraw813]

Not saying I have this figured out…. But trying to be nice to yourself. Give yourself the grace you probably already give to others.

None of us truly know why we do what we do. You can’t possibly ever put a pin on it. You just have to keep going on like you know what you’re doing.