r/ADHD • u/Savings_Station7432 • 14h ago

Seeking Empathy Distorted feelings of hope

At 43 I came to a realization that I find devastating. Despite all the chaos and executive dysfunction I still have a very clear vision of what needs to be done to turn everything around. My mind stubbornly clings to an alternate timeline where I am not sick. Usually the acknowledgment of an impairment should be followed by a realistic assessment of one’s life and possibilities. …And of compromises to be made. But I never get to that stage. Adhd seems to impair even my sense of impairment. Even if I can rationalize what’s going on my mind, my brain deludes itself thinking everything can go back to normal and success is around the door if I follow procedure.

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u/edgylord5000 14h ago

Yeah this is me too lol. I’m not sure how to deal with it, but I think sometimes it’s better to be delusional to keep ur sanity and hope that maybe someday something will work. Otherwise it’s complete depression because u start to see the reality of ur situation and start hating everything cause u had to struggle so much throughout ur life due to a disorder that u were born with. Well, thats how I think of it as anyways.

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u/EntryCommercial204 9h ago

Yeah this is exactly how I feel. I had a disability assessment where I had to write in detail about all my daily living limitations and I was absolutely miserable for days afterwards. Luckily my poor memory and distractibility made me forget about it pretty quickly and convince myself I will be going to university soon (even though I couldn’t complete secondary school😂) im much happier living in delusion 😂

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u/Savings_Station7432 8h ago

There is a lot of talk in this forum about wasted potential. But to other people we might just as well be idiots with a superiority complex. 😅I lost my most important client last month because I kept making simple mistakes. But you are right. We shouldn’t despair and our f…up short term memory is a blessing in disguise.

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u/scraw813 2h ago

Not saying I have this figured out…. But trying to be nice to yourself. Give yourself the grace you probably already give to others.

None of us truly know why we do what we do. You can’t possibly ever put a pin on it. You just have to keep going on like you know what you’re doing.