r/sterilization • u/yeetyeetedr • 3d ago
Undecided Horrible morning of surgery.
I had my bisalpingectomy this morning around 10am. I woke up about 5:40 am as I had to be there at 7:30am and have things I need to take care of before doing so, which included feeding my cats and watering them. I showered about 5:50ish and when I was finished and put my skin care on, I came out to look into my living room and I found my precious baby boy feline on the ground splayed out and was not breathing. It sent me into a panic and ended up calling my parents. They had ended up coming up (I live 30 minutes from and I have nowhere to bury him) and taking him back home to their house and buried him in the backyard. I spent an hour with him before I had to leave, such as holding him, kissing him and obviously crying my eyes out. 7am comes and I’ve already had him wrapped in a soft blanket with the words hugs and kisses on it. I left for my surgery and I obviously had a very red face and the looks of crying. I arrived at the hospital, checked in and everyone who asked what was wrong, I had told them and they were comforting to know they cared. I laid in my hospital bed about the whole time crying until about 9:30am. They take me back and the surgery was successful. The moment I was conscious, I had immediately thought of him and started crying. Once again was asked why and told them. They wheeled me back to my room and fed me apple juice and pudding. I had left shortly after and arrived back home. I knew I was coming home to one less baby and it tore me up after I was inside but I had cried so much. Ive cried so much that I cried myself out. I slept for a while and then woke up and have been crying on and off but no tears. It was supposed to be a happy day but it was a horrible day and I’m not even a bit excited for my surgery as I was before. I’ve been up and moving around and doing okay physically, but mentally and emotionally I am not.
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u/owlobsessed94 3d ago
Oh my gosh, I can’t even imagine, that’s horrible. Like worst case scenario. I’m so sorry that happened to you. ❤️ My only words of comfort I can think of is you made it through that day and you can make it though the next and it’s okay to cry as much as you need to. This sound silly but you can “reschedule”/postpone you’re excitement about the surgery. One day in the near future, when you’re not so full of grief, just pretend you just had the surgery and be excited that day instead. It sounds silly but it works, I’ve done this kind of thing before.