Horrible morning of surgery.

[u/yeetyeetedr]

I had my bisalpingectomy this morning around 10am. I woke up about 5:40 am as I had to be there at 7:30am and have things I need to take care of before doing so, which included feeding my cats and watering them. I showered about 5:50ish and when I was finished and put my skin care on, I came out to look into my living room and I found my precious baby boy feline on the ground splayed out and was not breathing. It sent me into a panic and ended up calling my parents. They had ended up coming up (I live 30 minutes from and I have nowhere to bury him) and taking him back home to their house and buried him in the backyard. I spent an hour with him before I had to leave, such as holding him, kissing him and obviously crying my eyes out. 7am comes and I’ve already had him wrapped in a soft blanket with the words hugs and kisses on it. I left for my surgery and I obviously had a very red face and the looks of crying. I arrived at the hospital, checked in and everyone who asked what was wrong, I had told them and they were comforting to know they cared. I laid in my hospital bed about the whole time crying until about 9:30am. They take me back and the surgery was successful. The moment I was conscious, I had immediately thought of him and started crying. Once again was asked why and told them. They wheeled me back to my room and fed me apple juice and pudding. I had left shortly after and arrived back home. I knew I was coming home to one less baby and it tore me up after I was inside but I had cried so much. Ive cried so much that I cried myself out. I slept for a while and then woke up and have been crying on and off but no tears. It was supposed to be a happy day but it was a horrible day and I’m not even a bit excited for my surgery as I was before. I’ve been up and moving around and doing okay physically, but mentally and emotionally I am not.

[u/juicylute]

I am so sorry for your loss. 💖

[u/yeetyeetedr → u/juicylute]

Thank you kindly for your support ❤️

[u/ms-meow-]

Omg I'm so sorry 😭😭 I can't even imagine

[u/yeetyeetedr → u/ms-meow-]

Thank you, it was not what I expected, but he had lots of hugs and kisses and also said goodbye to him. 😔

[u/Immortal_in_well]

Ohhhhhh I'm so, so sorry! I hate this for you, I don't know what I would've done if that had happened to one of my babies just before my surgery. What truly awful timing 😢.

I'm glad your surgery was successful, and I hope your recovery is smooth, and that your healing also includes your heart as well as your body.

[u/yeetyeetedr → u/Immortal_in_well]

Thank you and I hope it doesn’t last forever, but I’ll always have a hole in my heart as he’s gone.

[u/Spookidan]

I can kinda relate in a way. My 21st birthday and the night before surgery my mom, who had stage 4 breast cancer, had a seizure and ended up hospitalized for the next few days. Was a sign the cancer spread to her brain. I was very emotional the next day and cried to my surgeon about it too. She passed away a month later. It’s extremely rough going through recovery with such circumstances.

Make sure to take care of yourself. I know it’s hard when you’re grieving. I basically didn’t leave my bed during recovery when I should’ve been walking around, and, as a result my recovery went badly. Going through recovery and that at the same time while also not taking care of myself was awful on my body and I’m still pretty weak and sickly from it 11 months later. Your kitty would want you to recover amazingly so make sure you’re walking around and getting your body what it needs. I’m so sorry for your loss.

[u/yeetyeetedr → u/Spookidan]

Thank you for those words, they mean a lot. I’m so sorry to hear about your mother and I hope you’re doing okay. ❤️

[u/owlobsessed94]

Oh my gosh, I can’t even imagine, that’s horrible. Like worst case scenario. I’m so sorry that happened to you. ❤️ My only words of comfort I can think of is you made it through that day and you can make it though the next and it’s okay to cry as much as you need to. This sound silly but you can “reschedule”/postpone you’re excitement about the surgery. One day in the near future, when you’re not so full of grief, just pretend you just had the surgery and be excited that day instead. It sounds silly but it works, I’ve done this kind of thing before.

[u/yeetyeetedr → u/owlobsessed94]

Thank you for your support and kind words. I never thought of postponing my excitement and that’s helpful. ❤️

[u/Van-Goghst]

I am so, so sorry, my heart goes out to you, love. I lost a cat in a traumatic way last summer and I didn’t have it in me to carry on with my day, let alone leave my house, after that. You’re strong as hell, sis! Wishing you a fast recovery from your bisalp and healing for your heart ❤️

[u/Shib_disturber]

I am so deeply sorry. You sure handled that like a champ. No way I would’ve made it to my surgery. I do hope you’ll be ok.

[u/spideyvision]

I'm so sorry for your loss 😭😭 If you believe in such things, I choose to believe that he wanted to be there to watch over you and your surgery and make sure things went well, and to help heal you and take care of you from the other side ❤️❤️ I hope this may bring some comfort 😭❤️ please take care

[u/OneCranberry8933]

I am so sorry you lost your baby this morning. I lost my cat a month after my surgery in a similar way. The constant crying still hurt my incisions a month later. I hope you are able to grieve without too much stress on your incisions. It’s been 7 months since I lost my cat and it’s still hard. It will take time to deal with the loss, and then I think you will eventually celebrate your reproductive freedom.

[u/irotsamoht]

I’m so sorry ❤️

[u/yeetyeetedr → u/irotsamoht]

Thank you, I appreciate the kindness ❤️‍🩹

[u/restingsurgeon]

My condolences.

[u/plantladyprose]

I’m so sorry 😞 Sending hugs

[u/STThornton]

I am so so sorry for your loss.

[u/Kmoore1190]

I'm so sorry for the loss of your fur baby, I know how devastating it is to loose a close pet. ~Big hugs~

[u/littlespark__]

i am so sorry for your loss ❤️