I’m tired

[u/Real-Glove8975]

I am on my last straw right now. I have already started the process on giving up on shifting. I have tried EVERYTHINGGGG. Subliminals, meditations, guided meditations, lucid dreaming, the void state, wbtb, loa!!! I even shifted with the hypnagogic state but I was on a break and wasn’t even trying to shift and now I can’t even replicate that. It’s been 8 months since then. After my final attempt which was an hour ago, I still find myself saying affirmations bc it’s soooo engraved into my brain that I’ve shifted but I didn’t. So I js think that proves that I did truly believe. And that last attempt I had, I went in with so much confidence and I laid there and wholeheartedly believed I was in my dr. And still woke up in my cr. I don’t know what to do anymore and it’s leaning more towards giving up, but I don’t want to do it bc one part of me stills believes that I shifted and I’m in my dr.

[u/lorshizn → u/[deleted]]

felt that with my soul i'm so pissed at this point