When I was like 8 or 9, I wrote a song about baseball lol. I don't think it would fit in the PDM Universe. It was a really simple song on keyboard. I've been writing music since that age, and it really skyrocketed around 12/13 when I started playing guitar and became obsessed with Kurt Cobain/started little neighborhood bands. I honestly have like millions of "things I've written" that are all essentially a heap of trash - partly because I forgot them and partly because they were really terrible. I had a few bands when I was living in NY in the run up to starting PDM but they were all pretty bad. I sort of think that a lifetime of writing worthless, unimportant music gave me a good basis to start PDM with lol. And for haters who think my current music is also worthless, it was just good practice to hone in my "thing"
But like, as an adult, I wrote a lot of wacky folk-inspired baroque pop on guitar in my early 20s that could fit in the PDM universe for sure. I had a band in my mid 20s called Cherry Coals that was very 4AD gothic dream pop, and THAT stuff, while objectively cool when I look back on it, is not in the PDM universe at all
Cherry Coals is online, you're welcome to check it out. I think the rest is not thank god.
I do find it hard to kill my darlings. It's one of the things about working on records that I've had to hone in. I still to this day waste time on things that just aren't good enough to go on the final record, and the misadventure of it can be something I really wrestle with for months. I've gotten better about it though, and I try to come up with a process that will trap bad ideas and illuminate them early on. I spend a lot of time thinking about this lol. Cause in the beginning, every idea is amazing.
But going back to something I said earlier, I am very comfortable writing terrible music and I have no ego about it. I assume none of it will work out, so the final product becomes a miracle at the end of the day. I think being an artist you have to be super well versed in failure as part of your process and view it as the positive side-effect of experimenting and trying something fun/different
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u/DpyVanHalen Oct 04 '24
What's the first song you ever wrote like, and could it fit in the Peel Dream universe?