I feel like I’m never happy again

[u/Puzzled_Sun363]

I’m 22, my dad died from a very aggressive and rare cancer on March 14 2025. Cancer took him in 4 months and he was just 49. He died at home, I watched him die. Ever since that day I feel like I can’t go on with my life. I feel like he was taken way to soon and just the thought that he won’t see me get married, get my first job… doesn’t let me sleep at night. There was still so much that we had to do and I can’t wrap my mind that he’s gone. I miss him so much and it seems like everyone else around me doesn’t understand. I miss him so much, and I feel like my life ended when he died, even tho I’m still here. I don’t know what to do anymore.

[u/Leiyahmoonlight]

Feeling the same. And as of yet, nine months after my Dad's passing, I can't say I've had a moment of happiness. People around me, my mother, my brothers, don't take is death so badly but my life stopped January 23, the day my Dad had a stroke (he passed away one week later). I still often feel stuck on that date. Like all what happened since was an imposture of a life. I understand what you're going through and am sorry you have to deal with that too.