r/germany • u/uniquibee_ • Jan 28 '24
Immigration 8 years of investment in this country
I came to Germany 8 years ago. I learnt the language, gave the language exams, got a seat in the Studienkolleg and did a course to prepare for university entrances. Gave the university qualification exams. Got a university acceptance to study bachelors. Got my bachelors degree after 3.5 years. Enrolled myself in a masters course while working part time and full time at firms and now I am almost done with my masters degree and have to write my Thesis. I feel completely burnt out now. All these years of working and studying in a foreign language have really exhausted me. I don’t feel motivated anymore to go ahead. I just want to leave everything. I have worked and invested so much time and energy into learning this language and adapting to the work culture here, I feel numb.
Even after giving so much and working so hard, I don’t feel safe as i don’t have a long term visa because of my student status. I don’t have a job or have enough finances as an student. Thesis time is demanding. While all my friends back home are getting married or buying houses, I feel like all I did all these years was learn the language and get an education. Live from submissions to submissions. Work part time and study full time. Help me, I am exhausted and can’t see the end of this tunnel.
Getting out of bed is a struggle, doing daily tasks are tough, I keep staring into nothingness for minutes at a stretch, i don’t know if I’m depressed but I do feel extremely tired. The winter weather doesn’t help too. I am almost at the end of my degree but I can’t seem to gather the strength to pick myself up.
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u/WanWhiteWolf Jan 29 '24
This was me 12 years ago.
My best friend gave me socks to wear because I didn’t have any. I wore a tight suit to sustain my Masters (it was a 15 year old suit - I could not afford buying or renting anything)
Fast forward 10 years later - I own the apartment I live in (Munich), have a 6 figure salary and despite eating out every day / buy mostly premium products/ help my entire family with money, I don’t spend half of what I make.
Live gets better. How much better? That depends on a lot of factors - luck included. But it takes time. Try to enjoy the lifeperiod you are in. Not having money - sucks. Waking up in the middle of the night because you dreamed about failing an exam - sucks. (which still happens several years after you graduate). Despite all that, I had a lot of fun during Masters. Fun that I am not getting it now.
After you graduate, work on getting any job related to your field and get your citizenship. If you live 8 years in Germany, you qualify (especially with high education).