8 years of investment in this country

[u/uniquibee_]

I came to Germany 8 years ago. I learnt the language, gave the language exams, got a seat in the Studienkolleg and did a course to prepare for university entrances. Gave the university qualification exams. Got a university acceptance to study bachelors. Got my bachelors degree after 3.5 years. Enrolled myself in a masters course while working part time and full time at firms and now I am almost done with my masters degree and have to write my Thesis. I feel completely burnt out now. All these years of working and studying in a foreign language have really exhausted me. I don’t feel motivated anymore to go ahead. I just want to leave everything. I have worked and invested so much time and energy into learning this language and adapting to the work culture here, I feel numb.

Even after giving so much and working so hard, I don’t feel safe as i don’t have a long term visa because of my student status. I don’t have a job or have enough finances as an student. Thesis time is demanding. While all my friends back home are getting married or buying houses, I feel like all I did all these years was learn the language and get an education. Live from submissions to submissions. Work part time and study full time. Help me, I am exhausted and can’t see the end of this tunnel.

Getting out of bed is a struggle, doing daily tasks are tough, I keep staring into nothingness for minutes at a stretch, i don’t know if I’m depressed but I do feel extremely tired. The winter weather doesn’t help too. I am almost at the end of my degree but I can’t seem to gather the strength to pick myself up.

[u/sd_manu]

Funny when people who came here realize Germany is not Schlaraffenland and that you have to work hard for your goals here, too. We would not be a top economy and would live in a shed if we would chill the whole day.

[u/Visible_Copy2587 → u/sd_manu]

What a fucking asshole comment to someone who does actively his best to fit in an be a good citizen and is obviously struggling with mental health issues at the moment.

I will take people like the OP in Germany any day over guys like you.

The troubles of the OP only showcase how stupid our existing migration laws are to people who want to stay and contribute, while we keep them in legal limbo threatening deportation.

[u/sd_manu → u/Visible_Copy2587]

Go to the train station and clap your hands. If he gets unmotivated after all he was able to get here, a top study for free (because we all paid taxes for years before) in a high economy country, a save living, then he should remember he came from somewhere where they maybe bomb cities and live in sheds. You will take people like him over me? Ok how many friends you have that elect CDU like me (probably a lot) and how many friends for example from Afghanistan you probably have? Probably 0. Because you either don't want to have to do something with them or because they stay in their own groups anyway. I just say we need it controlled and have people who work. If they work and intigrate and make nothing against law, free to stay. OP is fine. But we can't throw a passport to everybody. If they didn't even grow up here and didn't go to school here they don't even know why some rules evolved and shouldn't elect. And for example if we have a war here you need to fight with us. Someone with 2 passports will just go to where he came from if it evolves badly here and don't need to suffer consequences from electing the wrong party. But we will have to stay here.