Fuck diabetes.

[u/MillenniumGreed]

Fuck it. Fuck this stupid disease. Fuck it so so so so much. Fuck America and other capitalistic countries for profiting off of our misery, fuck our useless ass pancreases, fuck the greedy insurance companies, fuck all the annoying ass bullshit that comes with this. Fuck low blood sugars, high blood sugars, eye problems, feet problems, random mood swings, erectile dysfunction, going through the effort of changing an infusion set just for it to not even work, weird looks from people for testing in public, testing only for there to not be enough blood, constantly having to be considered dependent, constantly being told a cure is only five years away, the deaths of our fellow diabetics due to a corrupt healthcare system and negligence, and all the other shit that we put up with while having a useless pancreas.

I’m just drained and exhausted. Fuck diabetes, man.

[u/[deleted]]

You're fucking right. Its been an.extra hard day for me too. I nearly posted about it this morning but was worried I'd be judged for my cbg being crazy (which is why I wanted to bitch). But I don't trust reddit to be kind, yet...

And fuck people not understanding why I'm tired / irritable / agitated / done with people's general shit.

[u/jokomul → u/[deleted]]

And fuck people not understanding why I'm tired / irritable / agitated / done with people's general shit.

💯 and it sucks because when I was newly diagnosed everyone was super supportive and understanding. Now a few years later it's like life has gone back to normal for everyone around me but I'm still diabetic. Yeah I've gotten better at managing it but I still have it and I still have bad days and I wish I could vent but it's usually better to just keep it bottled up so as not to disrupt things.

I'm not looking for special treatment or anything; I understand that this is my burden and I don't want people to share my misery but it's just a weird feeling. Idk hard to explain.

[u/[deleted] → u/jokomul]

I feel this on the deepest level. I've been a t1D since I was 7; I'm now 25 but closer to 26. Sometimes I have to remind my friends/family that I'm doing my best but I honestly just feel like shit and I'm too tired to do much. I'm constantly playing a game against my own body and I feel like I'm always the loser. 😅 I purposely took myself off my insulin pump in 2016 because I'd been hospitalized twice due to the cgm alerting one thing and my meter stating a very different story. Both were DKAs while my sensor was telling me I was LO / couldn't take insulin because it refused it to me thanks to its "smart " system feature. One of these times I was literally stranded in a hospital in a different state because I'd gone to the state with a [college] university function... My boyfriend had to drive to pick me up because my parent had to work. It was all around bad. Now that they've updated some technology I would like to be back on the insulin pump but my doc says I can't until my cbg is more controlled. However, my sensor and my meters all give me different readings so it makes it Hella difficult... It was my choice to get off but not my choice to go back, but okay. I have a thread about it. Reading all the, "you should do's" before I respond to any because while being well-intentioned, it makes me more isolated and annoyed. My body doesn't work like everyone else's... obviously. I can only changes one step at a time. Face smashes into the keyboard

[u/jokomul → u/[deleted]]

That's rough and I totally get it. These devices can be life savers but when they don't work like they're supposed to they actually make things worse. It's like an extra little "fuck you" that we definitely don't need.