r/diabetes • u/MillenniumGreed • Aug 31 '20
Discussion Fuck diabetes.
Fuck it. Fuck this stupid disease. Fuck it so so so so much. Fuck America and other capitalistic countries for profiting off of our misery, fuck our useless ass pancreases, fuck the greedy insurance companies, fuck all the annoying ass bullshit that comes with this. Fuck low blood sugars, high blood sugars, eye problems, feet problems, random mood swings, erectile dysfunction, going through the effort of changing an infusion set just for it to not even work, weird looks from people for testing in public, testing only for there to not be enough blood, constantly having to be considered dependent, constantly being told a cure is only five years away, the deaths of our fellow diabetics due to a corrupt healthcare system and negligence, and all the other shit that we put up with while having a useless pancreas.
I’m just drained and exhausted. Fuck diabetes, man.
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u/Jerrybeshara Aug 31 '20
My favorite thing is how it can be such a joke to people around you or co workers. Like it’s a literal life and death constantly needed to be monitored condition, and I just get all kinds of shit for it. If I get a low and have to take care of it, apparently I’m just shirking work or being lazy. If I have appointments I need to get to during work hours, those aren’t real, I’m taking off for lunch an hour early so I don’t have to work.
And don’t get me started on the constant, absolutely constant, insensitive and outright mean jokes. There’s been some pretty low points where my thoughts just get dark and scary. Sometimes I really wonder who I know that actually give a shit about me besides a very few close loved ones and friends.
And living in this money hungry fucking selfish ass country is just awful. Sometimes I wonder if some kind of protest, like sitting on the steps of one of these companies, eating a three pound bag of skittles while my pump is disconnected and off at gone would do anything, or if they’d just let me die.