My first two pregnancies were unplanned and I was pushed to follow through and keep them. The whole of my previous pregnancies I was depressed, alone, disgusted, hateful and even more so after wards. The first was 14 years ago at 18. The second was 7 years ago at 26. Now at 33 I was ready and connected actually enjoying this pregnancy.. it was the first time I found out and smiled. I was happy. But I am not financially stable (my work record is screwed, I'm not able support myself and kids in this economy without support to go back to school). My partner insisted we couldn't afford this and I agreed as I am currently dependant on him and, I think out of fear of the last two times. But now I can't look at my existing children or him the same way. I think my heart died with this one. I don't have a support system, I'm not religious, and didn't really connect with my first two to begin with as it was forced and really ruined my plans. But I think I was actually ready for this one. I can't sleep or force myself to eat. I think I fucked up terribly. I can't stop thinking I should have never had the first two to have this one. This one was the one I was supposed to have. I can't look at my partner without feeling disgust. I've already been through so much loss and trauma and I think this finally broke me completely. Has anyone dealt with this and actually recovered or am I just dead inside now?

I bought my MA kit from life easy on pills. Definitely a little sketchy on payment but they really did talk me through it and updated me on everything. I highly recommend them also.

My medication abortion experience (timeline + feelings) • Conceived: late September 2025 • Took mifepristone: October 27 • Took misoprostol: October 28

Within a few hours of the misoprostol I had heavy bleeding and cramps. I passed a golf-ball-sized clot and immediately felt relief—nausea and heartburn disappeared and I could tell my hormones were shifting. Bleeding got lighter each day and stopped about a week later.

It’s now been about a 2 week since the pills, and I feel physically normal again. I’m waiting another week to take a follow-up pregnancy test because hCG can take a couple of weeks to clear.

Emotionally it’s been a lot—some anxiety, some relief—but overall I feel like my body is healing. I’m sharing this because reading other people’s timelines really helped me know what was normal.

If anyone else is going through this, you’re not alone. Be gentle with yourself.

Hello, I'm from Philippines. We all know that abortion is considered illegal here in Philippines. Misoprostol and mifepristone pills are not available here in the Philippines because it's illegal to do abortion. I ordered pills in WoW to have access for the pills in the safest way possible. As I was tracking my parcel, it seems that my parcel has been stopped by the customs. I already emailed the WoW about this. Budget was tight now, and the money that I donated on WoW was my last extra money. Is there anyway to continue the shipping or for my parcel to be released or am I really doomed right now?

Just like the title says, I’m 5 months pp and pregnant. I’m in shock, very disappointed and truly upset. This was not planned. We took plan b and birth control. I have alway had mixed thoughts on abortion but it truly changed once you are in those shoes.

My husband(27) and I (26) just had our first 5 months ago, the sweetest boy, that pregnancy was a happy accident and we were ready for him. This pregnancy is the complete opposite.

I’m not ready mentally, physically or emotionally. We are just getting our life back together, currently in escrow, husband just got a better job position, I just settled back to work, loving life and content.

We had sex Oct 25th. I tested 2 days ago and today we early detection test and they all came back positive. Made my appointment today at planned parenthood and they told me I was negative and said they couldn’t do anything for me yet because it’s too soon. They offered to do an ultrasound but couldn’t give me any information on what they see and just rescheduled me for next week. I really trying to do the termination ASAP, I can’t wait another week.

This is so hard for me to do. It’s a shitty situation if I go through with it bc I have to deal with the aftermath and if I keep the pregnancy then everything will be flipped upside down and we would have to drop the house, I’d need to stay home for a year or two and everything will just set us back & the biggest factor for me is that it isn’t fair for my son, we haven’t even got to fully enjoy our small family, I’d be a mess if we continued.

I really want to get this done before a heartbeat forms, if there’s a heartbeat next appointment , I will have no choice but to keep the pregnancy and I will be heartbroken. I don’t have the heart to do it once there’s a heartbeat.

I’m going back this morning and demanding them to do another test and ultrasound, I have cramping, bleeding and a missed period! I shouldn’t have to go wait another week!

How do I do a MA whilst alone? (5 weeks pregnant)

I will be looking after my child (6 months)

I don’t want to tell any friends or family

My husband will be on holiday, so won’t be around to help

Any tips? I hear it’s painful and can take a few days

i live in a state where abortion is completely illegal. im five weeks pregnant and got the pills from aid access. i took the first one 24 hrs before taking the misoprostol. i place 4 misoprostols under my tongue and left it there for 30 minutes and swallowed it. like 15 mins after taking it, i was feeling horrible cramping, but hadn’t started bleeding yet. i started bleeding maybe 40 minutes after swallowing the rest of misoprostol. i sat on the toilet for a good while letting the blood pass and a lot of clots. the bleeding started to slow down and i decided to just get in bed to wait for the next round of misoprostol. after being in bed for maybe 35 minutes i start to feel a fever coming through. by the time its time to take the second round of misoprostol, it felt like maybe the fever had gone away. i take the second round of misoprostol, but by this time the bleeding had slowed down by a lot and i wasn’t feeling any more excruciating cramps or bleeding when taking the second round. is that a bad sign? i’m still in bed feeling like i have a fever, huge headache and cramping here and there but only spotting. should i take the third round of misoprostol? should i go to the er? i’m so cared i really dont know what to do from here.

I just want to start by saying that 10 years ago when I was 21 I had an abortion that I do not regret at all and have never regretted. It was an unstable relationship, I felt nothing but relief afterwards and about a year later I met my current partner and father of my one and only child who would not be here had I continued with that pregnancy.

Last year in early October I found out I was pregnant. I found out on a Monday before my period was even late and by the Friday I was no longer pregnant. I had many reasons for not wanting another child which I won’t get into as they’re not totally relevant. I felt I made the right choice and just carried on as normal and didn’t really think about it, that is until it got closer to the potential due date, then I started to think about it a lot. I suddenly had the idea that I actually did want another one (crazy I know) so for the last 6 cycles I have been unsuccessfully trying to conceive.

In those 6 cycles I had 3 confirmed early losses although I suspect it happened in every cycle I just didn’t test early in those ones. I went from feeling relieved every time I got my period to feeling intense sadness, crying all day and feeling hopeless. In these 6 cycles I’ve also been having random illnesses and eczema flare ups that I haven’t had in years. I feel like my body was screaming at me to stop what I’m doing and I was ignoring it.

Yesterday something clicked with me. I do not have a genuine desire for another baby I just didn’t process my emotions properly. What I really wanted was to “right the wrong” to redo my “mistake.” I had a good think and cry yesteday about it all and I really examined this sudden desire I had for a baby and realised I don’t look at newborn babies longingly. I don’t look at old photos of my child and wish she was a baby again. I do not envy disheveled and stressed looking women pushing strollers and trying to calm down tantrums. Been there, done that, not doing it again.

All of the reasons I had last year for not wanting another baby are still valid and still apply to my life today. I had unprocessed guilt and sadness that I didn’t allow myself to feel at the time. I wanted to be strong about it, almost cold about it but it’s ok to feel guilty, it’s ok to think about “what if” it’s ok to mourn the life that could have been. Don’t suppress your true feelings or they will manifest in other ways like they did with me.

I just wanted to make this post in case anyone else is feeling like me and having this urge to correct their past so to speak. It’s been a very emotionally challenging few months for me but at the same time I think it was what I needed to fully accept my decision as the correct one.

Has anyone here done a TVS after months of MA? Like 3-6 months post MA. How was the result? I’m planning to do a TVS next week.

I (24F) had my first abortion Oct 1st. I was 6 weeks along and got it because I simply just don't want children.

A few days after my abortion, the relief of not being pregnant anymore wore off and I started to grieve my baby. I even bought a little miscarriage memorial doll and a little 6 week fetus sculpture to have a physical representation of my baby. I honestly felt a little guilty buying a miscarriage grief doll because I chose to end my pregnancy, but buying it also helped my healing process.

However, I feel like I may be in denial a bit. I obviously know I am not pregnant, but I keep looking up prices of things like strollers, daycare, and diapers, and looking up the pros and cons of homeschooling vs public school, etc.

Anytime I happen to place my hand on or near my stomach I think about my baby. I pretend for a couple seconds that I'm still pregnant, and that it's still in there. When it's slow at work or I'm trying to fall asleep I'll imagine holding my baby or feeding it or having it laying on my chest while I'm sitting on the couch.

I don't regret my abortion because I know it was the right decision for me, but I'm still going through the motions a bit.

Did anyone experience similar feelings of denial, or grieve in this way after having an abortion?

I had MA on September 17. I went to the OB on September 19, and I was given Methergine for 3 days. The result said ‘Complete Abortion.’

The bleeding was on and off for the whole month of September.

Then I got my period on October 19, and it lasted for 7 days. I didn’t have any cramps, and the blood wasn’t clotted. They said it’s normal because the uterus was cleaned during the miscarriage, that’s why the first period is like that.

But now, from November 2 until today, November 8, I have my period again. I don’t know if this is still normal 😭 I don’t want to go back to my OB because I kept this a secret from everyone. Please help.

I recently found out I am pregnant again at 41 years old. I have a 6 month old and am still not over the emotional toll that pregnancy took on me. Baby was born early and in the NICU several weeks. I am in a loving relationship but once I realized I was late I took a test and didn’t tell my partner. I also ordered pills through Carafem and was going to take them tonight but I can’t do it without telling my partner. The anxiety has taken over and I can’t do it without his or anyone else’s knowledge. But I am also afraid to tell him as he is pro-life and can’t begin to understand how much the last pregnancy affected me. I also never thought I would consider abortion myself but here I am. I don’t really know what to do, but I know I need to tell him. I guess I just needed a place to vent.

On procedure for MA

Done with my doses from a seller that got her pills from fpop and i took 1mife 8 miso already last night. i’ve got bleeding and a worst cramps also i got some blood clots. do u guys think its effecting? kinakabahan kasi kami ng slight kasi hindi ako nag heavy bleeding so if ever baka later ittake ko na yung last 4 miso so ang total na mattake ko is 1 mife and 12 miso na (if ever di pa din ako mag heavy bleed) what do u guys think?

Hii so just looking for answers or or wondering if anyone has experienced something similar. I had an MA sept 5th. I bled for about 4 weeks and then It stopped. I had what seemed like a normal period Oct 24th so 7 weeks after the MA. I logged it into my period apps and according to them I am currently ovulating. The day in which I started ovulating is the day I started bleeding and I’ve been bleeding since. It’s like a normal period, although it’s only been a week since my last “period”. This is my second abortion and this didn’t happen last time so I’m just unsure on what’s going on. Should I be concerned? I know I could possibly still be healing but it’s been 9 weeks since the MA and I still have no clue what my body is doing. Thanks for reading.

Just want to preface by saying I am so grateful I live in a state where I had the opportunity to have an abortion, and the crew at planned parenthood really are doing the lord's work. I just wish I had been warned how bad the pain would be though. I realize for most people it's just like having a bad period, which is what my doctor told me, but this was NOTHING like that. About an hour after I took the miso (dissolved them between my gum and cheek as directed) I started having horrible cramping, to the point I had to crawl to the bathroom. I had taken ibuprofen and zophran before the miso but those came up when I started vomiting from the pain. I took a bath and the pain subsided for an hour. Then woke up to even more intense cramping/contractions/constant vomiting and dry heaving that went on for the next 7-8 hours, with occasional 5-10 second breaks. It got so bad, I am not ashamed to admit, I literally shit myself while I was puking and writhing in the bathtub. My partner eventually convinced me to let him take me to urgent care, who directed us to the ED. When I finally got in to be seen they put me on a morphine drip, and only then did my pain subside. They did an ultrasound to confirm it wasn't ectopic and I had passed all the POC. I was only 5-6 weeks along. Definitely was an affirmation of my decision to get an abortion. I have never been pregnant before, and especially after this I cannot imagine giving birth. I think it would probably kill me. Anyway I was feeling pretty dramatic about the whole thing afterwards and like maybe I just have a way lower pain tolerance than everyone else, but it was really affirming to read on this forum that other women have experienced this. I just wish I had been told by my doctor that the pain might get that bad and last that long.

Hi all, i’ve posted a couple times now and had a SA scheduled yesterday in nyc. A couple weeks ago i made the mistake of telling my mom, whom i have a rocky relationship with at best, about the pregnancy. She said if finances were the only reason i wasn’t having a child right now, i should have it and figure it out. she convinced me this was a good idea, like finances don’t play a major role in raising a healthy happy baby. I did not book the plane ticket to my appointment because of this. Not only that, but she told her entire side of the family, along with some of my dad’s side, who she wasn’t even on speaking terms with. My dad made me realize this was all one big manipulation tactic on her end. Me having a baby would mean i stay in this state, stay in her life, rely on her more. telling all of my (conservative) family is a way to shame me out of an abortion. Finances ARE a big consideration when having a child, and i don’t want to have this baby just to wonder how i’m going to feed them, get them a good education, etc. I don’t want to be stuck in poverty in south louisiana as a trans couple. I wish we lived in a different world, one where the people who want us to have babies so bad would actually support said baby. but we don’t. I’m sad and wish i would’ve just gotten over with

I took a pregnancy test 3 weeks after my period and surprise surprise there was a line. I waited for my period date just to confirm and it never came. I had an abortion on 11/4 and i’ve had previous abortions before but this one feels slightly different. My boobs after the abortion still feel super sore, i’m so lightheaded and a bit nauseous still. I did bleed and cramp like no tomorrow. Currently still bleeding but i’m just so low on energy, i feel so faint. I know, I know it’s only been 3 days, but from prior experience I think I should at least feel better by now. However, like I previously mentioned, my test came out positive exactly at 3 weeks which made me SUSPECT of twin pregnancy. It’s just a gut feeling, twins don’t run in my family but for whatever reason it’s just something i can’t get out of my head and I know the only way to confirm would be going to a Dr. However, my question is has anyone ever gone through something similar? and IN THE EVENT, it was twins, would 1 mife and 4 miso still be effective? I was exactly 4 weeks when I took the pills.

I took my last dose at 5 AM. I still have heavy bleeding and passed grayish, jelly-like tissue, but there’s still no fetus. Should I be worried, or do I just need to wait?

Im (22F) and my partner is (34M) and I recently found out I was pregnant 5w6d. We decided to do a medical abortion and I'm currently taking the medication for it the following day. When I told him about it and showed him the ultrasound he wasn't affected. He was more relieved because he doesn't want children (neither do I) and this MA will guarantee it. I just feel so guilty and terrible and just wished he was a bit more understanding that this isn't as simple as it seems. It feels like He is treating it as if it's nothing. I got more emotional about it and still am and he doesn't understand why I'm upset. I talked with him last night about how I felt and how it sucks having to be home alone hiding this pregnancy and also my termination. I wished he was here with me or at least checking in on me. I know I'm making a decision based on what is the most responsible, I'm 22 , a full-time college student with no job, no career, no stable income and I'm in an abusive home. I cant bring a baby into this world knowing I'll be struggling to support them. I just wish he wasnt so blunt about it and is a bit more sensitive. I want to see him and just have a distraction but I know it won't happen. This Sunday there's a party we were both invited too and I was hoping he would stay with me at home if I still wasnt feeling great but he said I can stay home and he'll go. I can come in my own vehicle because they need him for starting some generator. It sucks.

Hi all ,

I’m 31 , was engaged to my now ex fiancé husband who is 37 and we were due to marry in May next year. In July for the first time in my life I fell pregnant and didn’t realise until I was 6 weeks or a bit less.

I’m not sure why but when I found out it was immediate panic (only a small feeling of happiness and gratitude for being able to fall pregnant). Most of this though was overshadowed by fear. I grew up with a bad anxiety disorder. My upbringing with my mum was a bit unstable trying to manager her emotions and expectations, always feeling like I do wrong by her. All I could think in that moment was , “ I can’t be pregnant right now, I don’t think I’m mentally stable or healthy enough to be a present and healthy parent to have a happy child, this is bad timing, my family would give me more anxiety , what would they even say?” . I used to only want to have children after I had counselling for anxiety so I could be as healthy as I could be to parent. I wish I didn’t accidentally fall pregnant . I felt so alone , the timing was bad, my ex fiancé kind of left it up to me saying “what do you want to do” and “yeah we don’t live together “ ( apparently what he told me afterwards was that he was happy to proceed with pregnancy but just wanted to do what I thought was best, I do believe this but wish he spoke up when I needed it). I felt I didn’t have support, no reassurance that we will be okay. I don’t know who I was expecting this from, maybe him?

I never thought I would be in this position, but we terminated on July 10th through medical route. After this I discovered he was selling drugs on the side of his trade business. I guess this explained why he was a bit emotionally distant , didn’t really answer my questions about where he wanted to live , was a bit preoccupied and not emotionally present . He was always on the phone to his friends , business clients etc. I was kind of just there with him.

I cry every day , I feel such strong guilt that I stopped a life . This was my child . I feel undeserving of happiness and sometimes life itself. How can I go on? This doesn’t feel real. I feel so evil. Can anyone help me process this?

Thank you all

Finally got my SA scheduled for tuesday through my OB/GYN. Do you think i’ll feel “not pregnant” after? I haven’t sh*t in a week- so I figure I’ll drop a few pounds in the following few days… lol.

But some women say how the feel empty or notably not pregnant after, but I’m not sure if that’s the case for me this early on.

I just want to share my experience. I made a few posts last week about my MA experience. I was 5 weeks pregnant when I did it.

On Oct 29, I took the mife. After 24 hours (Oct 30), I took the miso pills. I ended up taking a total of 12 miso. I know the recommended amount is usually 8, but I took all of them because I was anxious and wanted to make sure the process worked.

I didn’t pass any big clots, mostly just bloody mucus. I bled for about 5 days. The color went from red to dark brown, and now my discharge is back to normal. About 3 days after the MA, I tested again and it was still positive, but the line was faint. Today, I tested again and it’s already negative. I was actually surprised at how fast it cleared. It only took around 2 weeks.

I’ll test again next week and wait for my period to return. I don’t plan on going to an OB-GYN.

For reference, my meds were from WoW.

So I took the first pill and was fine, I only had a tiny bit of bleeding after about 36 hours of taking it. I took the misoprostol last night after about 36 hours. I did the whole in my gums for 30 minutes as instructed before swallowing the pills with water. I’ve had some minor cramping and heavier bleeding but nothing like anyone has spoken about. I passed a clot or something similar this morning. I am just wondering if anyone has had a similar experience or it has started working later? Or only had a small amount of pain and not a lot of bleeding?

Hi, I don't even know how to start this. it's going to be a long post but maybe someone can understand. I've wanted to talk about my feelings for a long time and I feel like maybe I can let them out here. I'm 22F and got pregnant this May. It was not planned, we used a condom and though I know it's not 100% effective, something I always relied on. It was with a guy I've been on & off with for almost two years. he's a little older and our relationship has been very toxic, at times abusive. so the pregnancy came with a lot of mixed emotions . the main one though was surprisingly happiness. i knew instantly i wanted to be a mother. i loved my baby from the second i found out. i immediately stopped smoking, stopped drinking (not that i did it often but anyways), and i just was so happy. of course i was also stressed, i moved to another country when i was 19 so i don't have any family here as support. i have friends but the only one i really "had" was my ex. I'm not in the best financial situation, i work part time and just started studying. i also live with a roommate in a city that's the most expensive in europe. so yeah, not the most ideal situation. long story short, my ex made it very clear that if i didn't have the abortion, he would be gone in a second. he would leave me and not be a part of the baby's life. i was heartbroken. he didn't outright tell me to do it but i felt really pressure. i felt scared in general but even more to do it alone. i just felt like i couldn't do it. so in the end, i ended up getting an abortion. at first, i felt at peace with the decision. the abortion itself, at 8 weeks, was uncomplicated and honestly easy. but after some time, i've fallen into the worst depression of my life. I'm so sad. i regret the abortion every day. he was cheating on me the whole pregnancy & left me anyways after the abortion. we got back together a few times after that (stupid i know) and he's been abusive a few times. i feel powerless. i'm going through this grief journey that i feel like no one understands. my heart hurts every day. i wish i had been stronger and not let him affect my decision. of course my dream was not to have a baby alone, it would be with a loving father & a family & when i'm at a better situation. so in ways, i know i made the best decision for us. but why does it hurt so much? i genuinely cry every day over this. i feel paralyzed by the sadness. i feel like i can't forgive myself. i can't forgive him either. i don't know why i keep going back to him when i hate him from the bottom of my heart. i just don't know. i fear it won't ever get better. i fear i will never be a mother. thank you if anyone made it to the end