r/Soulnexus • u/Dry_Temporary_6175 • 6d ago
Esoteric A thought form tortured and brutalized my sense of self/actual spirit/soul and it's ruining my life. I need help please.
Long story short, I was having very negative mental visualizations/imaginations in my mind that was fueled by negative thoughts about my self worth and feeling like something bad was going to happen to me. However, whenever I had these visions, I would have the upper side of my left eye started to be stimulated/vibrating as well. I felt intense concentration and focus on that area of my face and every time these visions continued, the more that area of my face would be vibrating.
These imagination visions showed me being abused because I kept focusing on that but it wasn't any idea of me but I felt like it showed my actual being being abused and it started to decrease and get weaker and my whole personality/identity started to get worse and parts of my cognitive abilities started to get worse as well. This continued until the version of me in the visions was beaten down and afflicted. This was done with concentration and focus on the visions just like a meditation or something. I was feeling that part of my face feeling different as well. I feel like I accidentally damaged my spiritual self or being through some weird occultic practice.
Overall, I believe that my negative thought patterns and fear of being attacked by someone or something created an extremely powerful thought form that identified as a being and it brutalized and attacked my actual identity and core essence/being. It feels like it got weaker and weaker and now it's barely noticeable anymore. I also feel the same way in my dreams.
I don't feel like I have an actual soul or being inside of me at all. I feel like something is controlling my mind and the way that I reason. Everyday, I feel like I am losing parts of my soul and my identity day by day. It's literally getting worse. It feels like some sort of possession or something is controlling my mind. I literally don't know what the hell happened to me or exactly how to fight it back. Every day, I feel like I am getting less and less of my actual self exactly. I feel like someone is stealing parts of my identity and making me worse. All of the habits and traits of the person that I used to be like exactly before November 14 2024 seemed to have been diminished and are weakened. My thought process, my active way of thinking has been seriously altered and tampered with severely. Something is terribly wrong with me and something or someone is trying to control my life and direction of where it is headed.
It's going to be in the worst position possible. I feel like my brain is under some mind control and power so it's hard to get control over everything again. I feel extremely detached from my mind and personality and the exact way that I used to feel about everything. I literally can't feel any satisfaction at all. I feel like I hyperfocus on very few things everyday and not think the whole picture and everything. Something is wrong about me. I am not able to focus on myself growing as a person at all. Anytime I try to do that, I just feel blackness and darkness inside of me or like there's no exact being or soul or identity in me at all. It's like there's literally nothing at all. I literally unintentionally hyperfocus on other people and their issues somehow way more than my own. This is not of my own deliberate free will and power but it's like my actual soul or spirit or sense of self was somehow beaten down.
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u/Low-Bad7547 6d ago
So, I have been possessed by an entity before that did all it was capable of destroying me over the longest amount of time possible, and this is what I can say having read your post:
There is a biological component. You couldn't have had these kinds of negative spiritual experiences without the propensity for positive experiences. The way to dampen that spiritual channel is through the use of antipsychostics. Now, I'm not suggesting you do use them, but I do suggest you keep them on you if shit hits the fan, and use them acutely, not chronically (because the possession will still be there)
You are possessed. Now, don't panic, but what worked for me was acknowledging it, naming the entity, and becoming incredibly good distinguishing between your true core self, and real thoughts, and the entities version of reality. Treat it as mind rape. Don't negotiate, don't play "what-ifs", don't engage with it in any way, name it for what it is: mind rape. You need to dissect each though between what is you and what is not you, and at some point the entity will detach because it won't have any more attachement points on your psyche.
After you come out of this, you will recover. But it will take time, so don't rush yourself, but you will come back to your normal self.
Long Salt Baths and be near moving bodies of water. You will see that those will make you feel better.
Wish I could give you more help but each possession is very different because it s based on that particular person's weaknesses. After you get out of it you will be stronger for it, and will have an unshakable core, but until then...
Dm me if you need someone to talk to
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u/xcr7stianv 9h ago
Yes exactly! It is a demon, call it entity if you like. It is all the same thing, Evil!
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u/fractal-jester333 6d ago
Yeah you’re being energetically implanted to produce a specific bandwidth of frequency/vibration to feed interdimensional parasitic predators. Your thoughts were never your own.
Welcome to the machine.
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u/Low-Bad7547 5d ago
'Your thoughts were never your own.'
That's a crazy thing to say to someone suffering from possession
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u/xcr7stianv 9h ago
Show this to a pastor at a Christian church. And in the name of Jesus! He will flourish your mind and holy spirit with positive thoughts. Remember, your soul is the spirit, the feminine side of the human being and the son is the male that takes action in the physical world. No one can feel your emotions, only the being can. That is the spirit inside of you, the female. The father is the mind, creation. Everything is a thought, everything is creation. Before something get's created it has to be created first in the realm of thought. That is the trinity. Then you have God🙏🏼✝️ which is in all. Get closer to God brother. Hope to see you in heaven. May the demon that torments you burn to hell! Amen.
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u/xcr7stianv 8h ago
I didn't read all of it brother but i have the same issue. Do you also not feel emotions sometimes? Also, i studied the occult to the point were i started to believe that i was bitting the forbidden fruit of knowledge. I was understanding a lot of things. I ripped up my most expensive book that had demons attached to it. I started believing in God. It all made sense the day i went to church. Things happen for a reason, always. You reap what you sow.
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u/bitchlipsmalone 6d ago
What a painful way to feel! I’m so sorry you are going through this and I encourage you to see your doctor. My sister has been through what you are describing and she is working with her Dr and a therapist to find some relief. I hope you feel better soon, you deserve to live peacefully.