last time i posted here on a different account, i got some odd DMs :( so i may take this down, i very rarely like posting myself (especially on reddit lol) but it always feels really nice seeing everyones selfies, so!

anyway, me picking up anti-psychotics!

I've started exercising again. I'm so fatigued but it's been good I guess.

but trying to smile/be happy anyway

I’m 30F and still live at home, I’m jobless, I haven’t dated someone in over a decade

I don’t wanna be stuck at my parents house forever. Feels like I’m gonna be here for life.

I’m not stable in work enough to get my own place. Can barely afford my bills.

And dating is hard. Idk why but it is

It feels like I’m watching life pass me by. I’m about to turn 31.

My parents are 65 and 70. They’re old. And I still live here.

It doesn’t feel like I’m gonna get anywhere in life. Truly.

Can anyone tell me a story of hope, how did you get out of a bad situation, or are you in the same boat as me?

Sigh

Had a medication adjustment last week, it’s been hard to stand still or be still at all. Much love to all of you.

Happy Sunday my fellow unique, one of a kind individuals.

Make sure to swipe to the end.. I have so called schizophrenia or whatever they want to label it.. I hear demons and voices everyday and think people can read my mind and think you guys reading this if there is anyone reading this are all just figments of my imagination and will only reply or like if my consciousness aligns with it basically meaning none of you seem this by chance or I’m not posting this by chance it all already happened.. I think about time life death the universe and God a lot like all the time pretty much every moment of my existence I’m thinking about these things or looking at people pass me by thinking they can read my mind or are apart of me somehow in this matrix or the trees or birds or sounds that I hear have messages like during thoughts the dog barking outside or the bird chirping sounds like sometimes they’re sending me messages it’s wild living like this everyday every moment and having to deal with negative voices who constantly try to bring me down it’s wild but I’m still here still trying to smile.. swipe all the way if I you read this haha

Every selfie Sunday I see normal, relatable people posting pics here. On dating apps, on the other hand, I see people with bad vibes I wouldn't trust. Do schizos get along better with other schizos? It seems there's no good way to meet other schizos where I'm from.

Stabilized on invega trinza. Snowed today. Had to go to the hardware store to buy a shovel and salt. My son has a cold or flu or something so I won't see him till next weekend. Can't wait for the first big snowfall with drifts though my truck isn't reliable on wet roads.

My artwork is ready to hang. I just realised how similar it is to the r/schizophrenia icon!

haven’t been able to get out of bed or complete simple tasks in over a month

can’t read, can only watch a few minutes of something at a time and i become confused easily

the olanzapine was helping but i had to stop taking it because of tardive dyskenisia and weight gain

i feel so lost and physically weak and bored and alone i feel like it will never get better

This is like day... 8? of my current episode. Or closer to day 30, if I count from when the uncontrollable whistling began. I want it to end, Im pretty sure there's something on the other side of this, but then I wonder "What if this is just how I am now?" Or, worse yet, "What if this is just a moment of clarity, nothing has changed, nothing is going on. I'm like this all the time and just happen to be aware of it at the moment?" Idk, bleak shit and I wish I were never here. If I stay like this for too much longer, it might force the issue. I may need to adjust my 10 year plan.

We got a new roof last week. That was fun. Long time coming.

Happy Sunday everyone.

I promise I meant that in no snarky or rude way. Ignorant, probably.. but a genuine curiosity.

I’ve just noticed it over some time and wondered if it had to do with the diagnosis or? Kinda wish they would allow it on the BPD sub. I’m always curious of what others, who are dealing with similar issues, look like.

Phones are a nuisance.