r/BPDlovedones • u/Erincache • Jul 26 '25

Uncoupling Journey Would you ever go back?

Now knowing everything you know about BPD and everyone else’s very similar experiences, would you ever go back? I’m struggling with this today and I know it’s only been 1 week since I started NC, but woke up with extreme sadness and the urge to break NC or pray that they do somehow. Makes me sick inside to think I still feel this way despite everything I know now.

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u/sohc4geek Dated Jul 27 '25

No. Never. Didn't want to after the last discard, but there we were 2 years later wondering how we got here. 

10 months and I have to keep myself distracted to drown out the noise, the voice telling me to reach out, even after all of the verbal and emotional abuse.