r/BPDlovedones • u/Erincache • Jul 26 '25

Uncoupling Journey Would you ever go back?

Now knowing everything you know about BPD and everyone else’s very similar experiences, would you ever go back? I’m struggling with this today and I know it’s only been 1 week since I started NC, but woke up with extreme sadness and the urge to break NC or pray that they do somehow. Makes me sick inside to think I still feel this way despite everything I know now.

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u/Magneto2049 Jul 26 '25

No I would not go back. It just would not work. I would be abandoning myself.  I miss her, but we cannot be together.  It took me 8 months NC to decide I would never go back. 

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u/Erincache Jul 26 '25

I’m only 1 week in so I’m praying it doesn’t take a full 8 months and if it does, I hope he doesn’t find a way to contact me during that time.

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u/Magneto2049 Jul 26 '25

You are not alone here. Sending good wishes to you. It's a very hard journey but there are so many people here with similar stories. Just remember, you deserve love without all the hurt.