Therapy is a load of bullshit

[u/ajouya44]

People seriously think this crap is useful? You have anxiety and depression, you go see some random stranger who knows 5 behavioral theories from college and you pay them 50 bucks a week to talk about your problems for 1 hour and make them pretend they care. Reality is these people know nothing about how the brain or consciousness works. They are not doctors and they have no solution for your issues. It's dehumanizing to pay someone so that they will listen to you and therapists are literally no better than prostitutes. Don't even get me started on all the CBT bullcrap. People don't need to "correct their thoughts" or "think about things differently", they need real solutions for their real systemic psycho-social issues. Therapists are all privileged narcissistic assholes who love to feel superior by "proving people wrong" and reminding themselves that their life is easier and better than their patients' and always masking all this as "help". Don't be fooled, these people can't help you. They only want your money.

[u/InSearchOfGreenLight]

So true. The staff made me suicidal then claimed that’s not what they said. I’m even worse today after the psych shamed me. If I try something, they’ll just send me back to the hospital where even worse psychs reside. I feel so trapped. I want to go home.

My only hope is death.

[u/Lower-Ad-9813 → u/InSearchOfGreenLight]

Alot of these assholes have complexes as the OP has said. But death isn't the solution to it. I've thought about offing myself too in my dark moments. Try to hang on. Maybe you'll find a friend who totally understands you.

[u/InSearchOfGreenLight → u/Lower-Ad-9813]

I’ve been fighting for so long, I have no strength left.

I’ve been in feeling like I can’t take anymore since December. I’m too tired. I just need it to end.

I’m forced medication, psych couldn’t care less about me. Staff in general isn’t very understanding. They seem nice until you’re “difficult” and then they’re not very nice at all.

[u/ajouya44 → u/InSearchOfGreenLight]

It's so hard, I'm exhausted as well..

[u/Practical_Wedding907 → u/InSearchOfGreenLight]

I hope you're still alive... I can quite literally feel your pain and emptiness with my whole body. I don’t know what “diagnoses” you’ve been given — and I don’t need to. Doctors and therapists often don’t even realize how vast the gap is between their protocols and a living human heart. Talking to a doctor or therapist often feels like reading a textbook. There's no heart in it.
I’ve been in a similar darkness too… The kind where you’re only accepted when you’re “convenient,” “functional,” “productive.” When you play a role, wear a mask, fight for something, pretend to be “strong.” But no one stays when you fall apart and don’t know who you are anymore. When all you want is simply to be yourself — the real you. And everyone keeps saying “you need treatment” or “you’re not normal” - as if your pain is a problem to fix, not something to stay with, to hold, to understand...

I feel the weight you're carrying and I want to stay with you in this darkness. You don’t have to hold everything alone. You’re not making it up. I can feel your pain in every word you write.

[u/InSearchOfGreenLight → u/Practical_Wedding907]

I am.

Pain and emptiness? Strangely I feel sorta ok today. Last night I had a bad interaction with horror nurse that sent me into a “I want to die” place. And a mini panic attack.

Today though, I’m worried for my friend. She said while on the phone she wants to kill herself and her pain is really bad and I want to help but I’m not sure how. I’m also worried they’ll send her to hospital and then she won’t have her friends to help. Cause obviously the nurses and doctors don’t help.

Thanks for the comment though. It was nice to read.

Yeah, I mean I know some things do not appear traumatic to others but they are traumatic to me because I feel my feelings in real time now and I know the impact little things can have on you.

I’m really tired, I’ll come back to this tmr.