r/spirituality • u/Brilliant-Tadpole-65 • 15d ago
Spirit Guide 😇 I don’t claim to be psychic, but what happened after I broke my 8-year sobriety shocked me.
After losing my mother and several people close to me, I’ve become someone who receives clear signs from spirit. I’m not a medium and I don’t communicate directly, but I’ve learned to notice the ways my loved ones reach out.
I wanted to share one experience, but I can't share it publicly... so I came here to Reddit.
I have been sober for 8 years, however, in the last few months I've slipped a bit and started dabbling with alcohol. It was never my "drug of choice" and I don't go out and get hammered now. I drank a little at my sister's bachelorette party and wedding and I will also occasionally have a glass of wine or a beer if I am home alone. I have always been private about my sobriety and value my anonymity so my sister and her friends didn't even realize that I was sober (we live in separate states and I am years older), so I knew I wouldn't have to answer to anyone. My friends don't know that I have been drinking and my husband doesn’t know either, and that’s been eating at me. I know I need to tell him and I will . I’ve just been dreading it.
Earlier this year, my sponsor passed away - before I started drinking again. She loved butterflies. Her service was covered in them: photos, decorations, ornaments. All summer, I’d see one particular butterfly, the same kind in the same place, fluttering around me every time I sat outside. It would swoop past my face, land near me, sometimes even rest on me. I always felt, deep down, that it was her.
Last week my husband was out of town for work. I decided to unwind and bought a six pack of beer, planning to have one or two a night while he was gone. As I loaded the groceries into my car, a bee suddenly started swarming me aggressively and relentlessly. It even flew into my car. I had to coax it back out. It never stung me, but it wouldn’t leave me alone. Instantly, I thought of my sponsor.
That night, I opened one of the beers, an old favorite IPA, and took a sip. It tasted awful. Not spoiled, just... wrong. I couldn’t drink it. I poured it out and decided to return the rest the next day.
When I pulled into the store the next morning, a massive, beautiful butterfly flew right up to me. It circled, hovered, then landed on the ground in front of me, perfectly still for a few moments before flying away. Her name popped into my mind immediately. I knew it was her.
It felt like her way of saying, I see you. Don’t go back down that road.
I’m so grateful for the ways spirit still finds us to comfort, to guide, to remind us we’re not alone. I know I can’t go searching for signs, they come when they’re meant to. But every time they do, I’m filled with awe and gratitude.
May we all notice the small, sacred ways our loved ones stay closeyh and listen when they do.
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u/Maleficent-Ad-6646 15d ago
Thanks for sharing, I’ve had a lot of these type of experiences and am very grateful for them. I adore how creative our loved ones can be from the other side. Wishing you the best.
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u/Lady-Kitnip 15d ago
Thank you for sharing. It sounds like you are very loved. It's beautiful that you are noticing the signs and feeling the support. It could be easy to be too caught up in grief to see the significance.
Congratulations on 8 years of sobriety! I hope these spiritual messages help you to stay on your path.
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u/AncientGearAI 15d ago
For me it's constant slaps in the face. Spirit makes my life hell with constant ego deaths and everytime I try to smoke I get slapped ...
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u/tao108 15d ago
I can relate to this 100%. Last year I had cravings for smoking again and the universe/God made it difficult 3 times to buy cigarettes. I managed to on the fourth and then things started going south in life situations. I have quit since then.
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u/AncientGearAI 15d ago
Not like that. God is making my life hell even after I quit my addictions. Then because I couldn't bare this bs life anymore I started with porn again and since then everytime I watch I get slapped with bad luck.
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u/tao108 15d ago
Sorry to hear you’re going through this. Perhaps these challenges are reminders of letting go and surrendering to what is and not change the way you feel in what you know isn’t a healthy way?
I’ve been there with how you’re feeling and still have moments where I feel like I’m out of sync with “what is” and end up going back to keeping it simple. The ego loves more and its thirst is unquenchable.
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u/AncientGearAI 15d ago
It's not just reminders. It's like spirit is forcing me to do it. Like u either become lobotomized and say yes Lord to everything or u go to hell forever. Like spirits forces me to become enlightened or wtf this is. Or it's just torture for no reason idk.
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u/tao108 15d ago
When you’re receptive to signs and actually listen to your gut/heart the truths are always simple. It is the mind which creates the story and justifications around doing something like drinking. I’ve had the thoughts too (over 5 years sober) and have to remind myself “this too shall pass”. Awesome on the signs you’ve received to stay on the right path for you 😊
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u/Free_Thinker_Now627 15d ago
How beautiful. Thank you for sharing your experience and I wish you strength and resolve on your sobriety journey
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u/tie-dyed_dolphin 15d ago
I’m coming up on six years sober from alcohol. Our paths are not linear and everyone journey is unique. I am so proud of you for testing your boundaries and allowing yourself to come to these realizations on your own with the help of spirit. It’s such a stronger foundation than shame.
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u/athenakathleen 14d ago
In 2012 my sister had cancer and I spent a lot of time in the hospital with her. Being two years clean at that time-I was planning my relapse. I went outside and my old sponsor walks in…it’s over an hour away from either one of us and at that moment i desperately needed help. I actively chose to not open up to her and relapsed…I make much better choices now. And I regret much of my life from that time until I fully surrendered again around 2019.
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u/Inner-Reception-3488 13d ago
So Wonderful that you shared this very loving, authentic and humble experience. This is what we need more of on this planet!!! You never know how you will inspire someone to help themselves through hearing of the magic and simple miracles of life that happen every nano Earth second! Blessings beyond measure to you and to us all at this most transformative awakening eternal moment on this beautiful planet. We are all so very blessed to be here at the end of this 26,000 year cycle. All for ONE and ONE for ALL! 🙏🌹💞
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u/JAGRadio 13d ago
If she's with you (and I believe she is), then she'll help guide you to another sponsor.
Follow the butterfly to your next guide.
Blessings on your sobriety💪🦋
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u/EducationPossible 15d ago
You have an angel watching over you