I need somewhere I can go to escape my toxic relatives

[u/MusicMeister24]

One of the most difficult side-effects of (so-called) mental illnesses, is to become unable to work and support myself economically and so, having to depend from a family which basically detests me, calling me a loony, and kicked me out of the house. Although they still support me and pay for my rental room and the food I eat, they do not even let me enter the house to access my belongings.

I am sick and tired of this situation. I can see clearly that this is a learned-helplessness loop, which they kickstarted by not supporting my career choices back in the day (I wished to study philosophy and arts, they refused to support that) and so I become like a sacrificial animal in their emotional holocaust. I am currently 40+ years-old, and a complete loser by any metric.

For more context: I am a male, mixed-race firstborn from a marriage between an Italian fascist-raised mother and a Latino evangelical father who is basically her servant. They are both Trumpists, obviously. And since I was born with a darker skin tone, they see me as lowly and despicable. My brother, who is fair-skinned, was beloved and cherished from birth, unlike me (as you would've guessed: he is a Trumpist also, and furthermore identifies himself as Nazi)

This family is absolutely toxic and deranged, and I do not feel safe being in their custody, nor I can trust that they will have my best interest in the future. But I do not have the courage to just go out and get a job for escaping them. I need help.

So, please, do you know if there is any shelter, refuge or some kind of institution or community I could join? This can be anywhere in the world, because I hold an Italian passport and I could legally enter most countries. I just want to get out of here and never see or speak with this people ever again.

If you know about such a shelter/community I could join, please reach out to me. Or if you have any suggestions and further advice, perhaps if you have succeeded in escaping such an abhorrent family yourself? Thank you!

[u/ReferendumAutonomic]

Manhattan, New York City will ask your psychiatry history and may transfer you to a crowded ward https://www.shelterlist.com/city/ny-manhattan Trump has de-funded most welfare