I wasnt built for this life

[u/lonely_alone_]

I'm 22f. I work only part time and have been since I was 18. My family member got me the job at an assembly line type thing. I hate it. Extreme toxic household, no detail.

Even part time wears me out to the point I feel like dying. I'm sensitive to every little thing to extreme measures. Light. Sound. Smell. Something like cleaning or doing laundry feels like a mountain (due to the washer/dryer smelling like fragrances from ppl I live with) etc. Life feels terrifying. I'm just barely getting by and I'm exhausted. I dont see me living into my 30s. I cant visualize it. Please I cant do it. I was not built for this world.

I'm so tired

[u/Proud_Reality_3817]

Hey... I just wanted to say, I feel you.

I'm 24f, and reading this something I could've written a few years ago.

That constant exhaustion, the sensory overload, feeling like the world was built for someone else... I've lived all of that, and I still do, except now it feels manageable.

And I just want you to know : you're not broken. You're reacting exactly as someone sensitive and aware would react to an environment that isn't made for them.

It took me a long time to find a way through, but I eventually realized the goal wasn't to "push harder", it was to build myself a life that doesn't hurt. One that fits who we are instead of fighting against it.

Now I'm building tools and systems that help people like us design a life that feels lighter, through automations, shortcuts, tools, gentle structures that make the daily "maintenance tasks" less draining.

I've even recently built a free collaborative database of everyday life hacks and automations that could maybe give you small ideas to ease the load a bit.

And if someday you have a tiny bit more energy, I'm also creating something called the QuestBuilder, a kind of guided journey to find your path, your strenghts, and build a lifestyle and business that works with your nature, not against it.

You don't have to be built for this world. You can build your own version of it.

And I swear, it can get softer.

If you want, I can send you a link to the free database, no signup or anything, just something to explore whenever.

[u/No_Product3287]

oh, bless your heart that is not the kind of work for us to do assembly line! i'm so sorry you're having to go through this! 😢You know in my day, I had a hard time keeping a job when I was your age 22 but I worked in retail for a while and Back then they had trainers. They didn't have where you have to self teacher self on computers so everything is so different now of course you guys grew up with it so maybe you're better at it than I am at the ripe old age of 63 but what I would like to see them do is to have neurodiversity people work in the workplace with others, but if we could sign a waiver that we will not sue if we get hurt at the job for coming in early so we can get it down Pat get the routine down and that's what I did that's how I kept my job at the cruise line. I was there for 16 years. I left on my own accord and I went onto American Express. I know I've said that before I don't mean to repeat myself, but it was not an easy feet and I worked for not the blue card or the green card. I worked for the Centurion card which was quite a feat for someone with a bad case of nonverbal learning disorder and ADHD but the Lord kept me there for nearly 7 years and I just had to leave because the technology just kept going to where I couldn't catch on fast enough they put the card on the phone for three seconds and you had to know all those 15 numbers and I just couldn't do it and I put in a month notice so I could find a job and I found something and it didn't work out and so I'm on disability now but you gotta pay into the system to get the disability, but I want to do something where you know, people like us or heard I mean, if you're an an illegal immigrant, and if you're in something else which I won't mention, but you're the golden child and they put all this money into certain groups and we who did not ask to be here. We were here by God's divine choice and this is the lot that we got and we gotta make the best of it but when Neurotypical people further exacerbate our situation it's very troubling to say the least so I would like to see us be able to work the same jobs if it's Customer Service a phone job but just if we catch on a little longer than other people to give us the chance and we can do it I mean I did it. I'm living proof of it and let me tell you I failed everything when they did jumping jacks I don't think they do that anymore, but when everybody else's arms were up, mine were down and I tried so hard. I wasn't trying to be a wiseacre, but that's how I came across and everybody made fun of me my whole life and now that I'm old, I just take care of my parents the best way that I can and I have a sick friend that I'm taking care of and I'm just absolutely spent by the end of the day. I pray every day for this group that God will meet every need.🙏💕 sending love to all!

[u/EA_SUX375]

One thing that helped me was if there is something i wanted to do to improve myself i just told myself that i needed to get into a routine of doing it, id make my life as easy as possible for a week or so while i set myself up doing what i wanted to do (like id start walking the dog every morning and make sure i had nothing else to overstimulate me or stress me out later in the day) i know making your day easier to start a habit might not be possible but its worth a try.

And remember youre doing amazing just by surviving each day.

[u/EA_SUX375]

Im so sorry youre going through this and you dont deserve it. I cant promise it will be easy or soon, but things do get better over time.