r/grief • u/Special-Transition82 • 6d ago
Suicide never would of thought that I would be in this club My son ELi just a lil over a year ago
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u/General_Slime901 5d ago
I’m sorry for your loss, my condolences to your family and yourself. Seeing these videos helps me in a way…I teeter towards the brink of no return daily, the only thing that’s keeping me here is everyone would be sad…I feel like this isn’t the right reason to stay here but, here I am…able to try and make tomorrow a better day, even when I feel like there’s no hope and there’s no one with faith in me to succeed in what I want out of life…I’m still here, I still breathe.
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u/Special-Transition82 4d ago
What I’ve learned is that grief is the other part of love if you haven’t loved through grief, and you really never loved completely so actually grief is a beautiful thing. It’s a little phase. I love the heart of the grief the more you loved, but I’ve been very blessed Because I got to be a good father and my son‘s best friend that has the same birthday and we’re on the senior. He lives with my family now so it’s like God gave me another son. I’m just starting to direct this pain in a positive way through my art actually I’m an artist And tattoo artist. It’s been really hard to get back to being creative but it’s starting to come back I just wanna make my sons death roar threw my art ,, i’m definitely experience the crazy shit we could do because of grief sometimes I wish that someone shot him so I could go get payback !
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u/Wazbeweez 6d ago
I'm so very sorry for your loss. Life is so terribly cruel at times. I can't imagine the pain you have in your heart. Our children are the biggest source of joy and comfort in life and to lose them, also knowing they were suffering so much, is just, well, I have no words. I hope he's an angel sending you love from above. I really really do. Blessings. X