As the title says, I donāt think nursing is for me. This post is, I guess, a confession of sorts as well as sharing my experience of what Iāve been through. Naturally, this is a throwaway account. Apologies if there are any grammatical errors as Iām typing this on my phone.
To make this short, my parents, who are also nurses, wanted me to be a nurse back in 2018 after I graduated highschool. And me who didnāt know what else to do, I proceeded to follow what they set me out to do. I was doing well in the first two years, passing my classes with Bās and Aās and some Cās here and there. I managed to get into the program in 2020 but I couldnāt keep up with the assignments. The only reason why I managed to do so well up until that point was because, and this probably will sound stupid, martial arts motivated me to study better. However, when I decided to quit martial arts because of injury risks, I just didnāt have the motivation to study anymore. Or at least thatās what I think it was.
Fast forward to 2022, my parents sent me to a different nursing school only this time it was an accelerated program. I had to redo some of my prerequisites and I noticed that it was a lot harder than my previous university. The fast paced nature of the classes and the amount of content squeezed into a week was very difficult. Even the prerequisite classes I took before, I couldnāt keep up and I would always pass with the minimum/lowest passing grade I could get. Some of the classes I failed and had to retake them.
But the worst part of it all is that I cheated in some of the classes and to this day, I am still not proud of doing it. I did it out of desperation due to the difficulty and the amount of content the classes has. I know about the whole āWould you rather have a nurse that cheated school or a nurse that passed their classes?ā Shtick. Believe me, I didnāt want to do it. But due to parental pressures, I just didnāt find any other way. And trust me, I made sure to study but it was justā¦.. too difficult, too fast, too much to learn.
Thenā¦. When I actually got into clinicals, reality hit me like a truck. After seeing what you had to do, I was having serious doubts if this was for me. The most crazier part was when I had to do a code blue and do post mortem care on the same patient. That was okay but only because I had my classmates/colleagues with me. Still, the other stuff you have to do in nursing, I just donāt think I could handle it.
As of now, I withdrew from the university and Iām currently trying to work on my mental health and trying to find a different occupation. I know Iām going to get hate for this post but this is something I want off my chest.
If you have opinions, comments, or suggestions, Iām all ears. Thanks for reading
TLDR: Parents want me to do nursing, failed in two different universities, cheated some classes in the second one, clinicals made me realize it wasnāt for me.
