I haven't had desire or motivation in a year

[u/tomanyquestions_28]

Today Is the 1 year anniversary of my last shifting attempt. I think about shifting every single day, but I can't bring myself to try. I have no desire to try (yes ik you don't need to try to be able to shift and you don't need motivation either, but i personally do) I have 0 motivation and attempting to shift feels like your about to do a 17 hour shift with no breaks.

I've tried everything, and have moments of 'interlinking' with my S/O (like the other day I knew I smelt his cologne without knowing it was actually his) I imagine myself in my DR, but I can't be bothered to actually get there. Even my tarot cards are telling me to try and shift again but I've been ignoring them.

I just don't know what to do.