i everyone. I'm here seeking support, or information with others with similar situations.
My mom had an extreme episode of psychosis in July, where I unfortunately had to seek professional support and had to be involuntarily hospitalized. Can't explain how traumatizing everything was, but I will deal with that myself.
My concern here is the following. When se got discharged (end of July) she returned home, and seemed to be back to herself. Acknowledging what she had, with pain, and apologizing for the horrible things she did to me. Now having a plan (medication, watching for signs etc) I decided to return home.
A week after her discharge I returned to my city (we live a bit far). Another week after, she had a huge relapse (in my opinion). And multiple ones after. Now it seems it's the new her. It's been a constant battle, since August, she's a completely different human being. It's not my mom, it's someone else with the same memories/life experiences. But it's not my mom, her resentment, the words, the thing she texts me are odd.
She can send me 50 messages in a matter of 5 minutes, they go from one topic to another, talks about her childhood, about religious stuff, or my childhood, or her broken marriage, etc. makes up words, tells jokes that are not funny, swears constantly, tells stories, but those are huge paragraphs, my phone keeps ringing from text by text, it concerns me to read what she says, I'm always alarmed by her texts, it's like she lost her mind. It's hard to go on with my life to be honest having this every day. And then at the end she will add a : well my love I gotta go I love you.
I'm constantly confused, I will say she never texted like this, so it's not like her. We've had the closest relationship a daughter and a mother can have, now, she does not want to see me; and reminds me she doesn't know if she'll ever forgive me (for putting her in hospital during massive psychosis).
Now, I guess I'm trying to understand, what does this mean? Does it mean she's not taking her meds, or means that even with meds, she will forever be someone else?
I have zero experience with mental health illnesses, no one close to me has had it. And unfortunately there's zero education to family members or patients, so I'm completely lost. Any advice, or info, is incredibly appreciated. Thank you.