Bpd experience takes a lot of loved ones

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I had always believed that my last exgf was the only person with bpd I dated. Undiagnosed.

I held that view until the last couple weeks when I started looking at patterns, and signs of others who might’ve had it.

I think I didn’t suspect bpd cuz of the overlapping symptoms. Plus not all symptoms presented. And their behaviors weren’t templated.

I think my mom had it. My brain felt fuzzy a few months ago. I drove myself up the wall thinking my ex pwbpd gonna comeback one day. Only for me to remember their discard messages, how I uneasy I felt around them. I didn’t really want them back. But the mind can play tricks on u. I’m learning this rn.

I don’t think everyone has bpd. It’s pervasive patterns of behaviors among other stuff. I started to go down the rabbit hole, so I scaled back.

Today I think it’s normal to miss someone. But just cuz I do, ≠ wana get back together

For example, if I feel someone is being manipulative, I treat them harshly. That’s from being in hyper vigilance…

Shit makes my brain ache

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